I want to forget but I can't.
I don't want to feel scared but I can't.
I don't want to feel suffocated but I can't.
I want to do something to distract myself but nothing is working.
I want to save myself but I can't.
I want to stop listening to emo songs but I can't.
I want to stop lazing aroung and do some work but I can't.
I want to cheer myself up with happy songs but it's not working.
I want to know the result but it's not coming out.
I want to cry but tears won't flow out.
I want to tell myself that this feeling is not real but my heart won't listen.
I don't want to fall in love with this but my mind can't take control.
The Girl Who Can't Break Up, The Boy Who Can't Leave.
And no, the end of the world is nowhere near.
At least it won't happen like what how the movie portrayed.
All of us are given a promise, that the world won't experience a flood that will wipe out mankind again.
And I believe in this promise.
I have faith.
I mean, the scientists are not building any ark right now, right?
I find everything so much like bullshit. Because nothing is happening like what I believe.
There ain't no part time love.
If it's possible, my heart will break right this moment.
Or it would have been broken a long time ago.
From all this pressure, all the sorrow and all the pain.
Which washed all the happiness away.
But I can choose to be optimistic.
I can choose to stay happy and blissful.
I can choose to smile...
Oh man I'm typing bullshit.
Thanks ah Mr Hussain.
I need a hug, a shoulder to lean on, a flower to talk to, a rock to crash this computer.
I need a heart to love.
I don't know why I'm like that these days. I'm simply too scared.
Need to ask Celine for her prayer request.
Someone recommend a happy song. Fill my heart with peace.
Just ask the damn thing to come out. It's torturing me like crazy. I'm going mad.
And no, I don't want to watch 2012 for 4 times. But it's probably not up to me to decide.
I need to watch somthing heartwarming, touching, something with a happy ending.
I need you.
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