Looking forward to this Saturday! (: See what I get and I'll inform my primary school and secondary school teachers about it! I hope they will be happy. :D
After having like so much good news in the first 2 weeks of school, I think I'm a bit used to it and was looking for 1 on Monday and Tuesday. My mum said that I'm a bit proud, but I think that I should keep working hard in, for example, tests and class and stuff so that I can honour God and be very aware that He is blessing me so much by counting my blessings (though I know that there's so much blessings that I won't be able to finish counting! :D), so that on every Saturday, I can worship Him and scream for Him like mad because I know that I've been living in victory for the week! (: Luckily, I found 2 for this week: the first being the training/trial from God to behave myself by having my mum set all the curfews and rules on me, and the punishment being not allowed to have pocket money for the week and not allowed to go to church for the week. This really trains me into having the mindset of doing everything to honour God, and not for my own pleasure or anything. (: The second one is that I topped the first H3 test! :D I was like super happy at first, but then when I thought about it, it would be very embarrassing if I don't take that spot. Don't be replace, just like what one of the sermons said, and since I think I'm capable enough, with God blessing me with so much, I'm sure I can maintain that spot if I keep working hard! (: I know that may sound a bit egoistic and proud and sad, but I'll do my best in my own way to honour Him.
Also, I checked out the website for IChO 2010 in Tokyo and found the schedule super nice. They've got excursion for the students almost every other day! Because anyway we will only be there to sit for 2 papers, but they gave us like 11 days to spend in Japan, so I was like from I'm really stressed... I don't know if I can be one of the 4 who make it there in July to I WANNA GO!!! IT'S SO COOL! xD
Hopefully it's healthy motivation to myself. (: And really thank God for Celine and her encouragement note! :D I LOVE YOU TO DEAR!! <333
Curfew at 11pm every night. Even on weekends. For sleeping/lights-off. A bit stressed and not used to it but I'll try. Need more skills to prioritise my tasks...
Critical thinking! Hope it will help me for my chem as well. :P
Alright I really should go. I think I'll only have time to go the GP articles and critiques on Sundays. I haven't done the one for last week so I have to do 2 this week. Note to self: Start revising for ICS SOON!!
I thank God for all that He has given me this week. (: I hope I remain humble and not become proud. I want to treasure my friends around me, and not just make friends with my chemistry textbooks and biology notes! D: Take care friends don't fall sick! (: Jiayou!
You give life a reason to breathe. 'Cos you're so awesome. <3
27 January 2010
22 January 2010
I'm so nervous and confused that I've logged into my blogger account 4 times in the past 1 hour to write new posts.
I shouldn't rely on my emotions. Ignore how I feel. Stop being so childish! IT'S NOT ABOUT MYSELF.
Lose youself in the music the moment you own
You'd better never let it go
You've only got one shot do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
But my child, I only want you to be happy. Think of it positively and don't let what the devil wants you to think influence you. If you know how he attacks you, then you can beat it. You don't have to suffer this dear. You just need to keep a cool head and focus. Know that it's not your true feelings, however much you feel like it is right now. Don't stress because I'm with you. Always. I'll never abandon you my love.
Thank you.
Lose youself in the music the moment you own
You'd better never let it go
You've only got one shot do not miss your chance to blow
This opportunity comes once in a lifetime
But my child, I only want you to be happy. Think of it positively and don't let what the devil wants you to think influence you. If you know how he attacks you, then you can beat it. You don't have to suffer this dear. You just need to keep a cool head and focus. Know that it's not your true feelings, however much you feel like it is right now. Don't stress because I'm with you. Always. I'll never abandon you my love.
Thank you.
BUT THEN AGAIN, I WISH IT ALL ENDS HERE.
I have no comment.
I'm really confused.
Mixed feelings, fireflies in my stomach.
Not that nice really. So don't try it at home.
I'm really confused.
Mixed feelings, fireflies in my stomach.
Not that nice really. So don't try it at home.
But really ah. Can't believe how much he cares about it. Even though it's like rare and all. It's damn scary now. Be bold, Yiting. Don't fear. Ok. I'll try my best this time round so that I won't regret at the end of it. Even though my best is not enough. Thank you for so much encouragement, help and faith in me. (:
And I Really Love You.
And I Really Love You.
Don't take them for granted. They are given to you by God.
I shouldn't be complacent with what I have. I must treasure them and really really not take them for granted. Whether it's family, friends, opportunities, mentors, I must treat them like it's really important. Because they really are.
I was discouraged by how my dad objects to me going earlier to church for discipleship with Melissa tomorrow. But then I thought there will be other ways, and I don't just have to choose one of them, and I felt slightly better. Also, I sort of reminded myself by remembering how my dad remembered that I need to leave home at about 12.30 to get to church, so he made lunch ready for me at around 12. I'm really touched by how my parents care for me, worrying that I may not be able to manage and all, and I appreciate my parents even more through remembering this. Thank God for the reminder, and I'm sure there will be a way out and I don't have to worry. Because when I have faith and do as God tells me, I will surely defeat the devil. (:
I need to have more faith in myself, because God has faith in me. Even those around me have faith in me: Madhu, Celine, Jocelyn, Shang Jun.... although it's probably because they've never been there. I'm a full-fletched mugger now, and got myself into more trouble and mess than ever. But I know that this is a precious chance that God gave me, for me to go through this experience and if possible, lead me to His plan for me. I'm really grateful for this chance and all the support from my friends, how Celine reminded me that I don't have to care about what others think about me as a mugger or anything. Because my friends don't mind, so if other people do, they are not my friends and so I don't have to care! :D
I can't believe how much Mr Yip is trying to help me, whether it is out of his own ego or he really thinks and hopes that I can excel. He even found a mentor for me in my physical chem part, which is like so shocking that I got a heart attack when he mentioned it. Almost as hard as the one I got when I saw him in LT1 on Wednesday. I think it's really part of God's plan that I stayed back after H3 today to ask Mr Yip a few questions, because he actually arranged his ex-student to come back to NJC and discuss with him about how he can help me with physical chem, since he was a silver medalist 1 batch back and he did H3 physics and he don't have to go for NS, yet. It's amazing how I stayed back until so late, all the way till his ex-student came, which was like past 6.30 when H3 lesson ended around 5 today and I intended to go home and rest. I thank God also that I brought 2 packets of crackers to school today, even though I wasn't hungry initially, but I made full use of them as I gave like 1 packet to Mr Yip as he was hungry. :D It's really awesome how God works, and I'm convinced to walk according to his great, pleasant and perfect plan for me. (: I also thank God that my parents came to fetch me from school today, even though they could only reach my school at about 8.30, and they haven't even eaten dinner. I'm happy that my little sister came too, and she didn't complain about being hungry or me finishing so late. (: Thank God.
Recently I got really caught up in asking for leadership qualities that I forgot even how to be a good servant, to God and to the people around me. It's just like how I couldn't swing my arms naturally as I tried very hard to correct my arm swing. I also need to tame my tongue desperately. I haven't been speaking to a lot of people nicely, especially Mr Yip since I knew him better, and even my OG frined laughed at how I demanded Mr Ng to check his letter tray by today. But I still can't believe that he left our assignments in TC16. Oh God please let our work be still there.
Thank God for the amazing grace. (: I'm feeling dizzy now, and has been feeling tired since H3 or even earlier. I really must rest more and not only do chem!! Jiayou Yiting! So many people rooting for you, so you can do it! Even God said that He's got great plans for me, so let me trust Him fully and rely on Him and not on myself or Mr Yip or my friends and family! No stress because if He is for me, who can be against me? (:
LOVE YOU LOTS! <3
P.S. I hope nobody follows Marcus Chan's nonsense, calling me grandmistress!!
I was discouraged by how my dad objects to me going earlier to church for discipleship with Melissa tomorrow. But then I thought there will be other ways, and I don't just have to choose one of them, and I felt slightly better. Also, I sort of reminded myself by remembering how my dad remembered that I need to leave home at about 12.30 to get to church, so he made lunch ready for me at around 12. I'm really touched by how my parents care for me, worrying that I may not be able to manage and all, and I appreciate my parents even more through remembering this. Thank God for the reminder, and I'm sure there will be a way out and I don't have to worry. Because when I have faith and do as God tells me, I will surely defeat the devil. (:
I need to have more faith in myself, because God has faith in me. Even those around me have faith in me: Madhu, Celine, Jocelyn, Shang Jun.... although it's probably because they've never been there. I'm a full-fletched mugger now, and got myself into more trouble and mess than ever. But I know that this is a precious chance that God gave me, for me to go through this experience and if possible, lead me to His plan for me. I'm really grateful for this chance and all the support from my friends, how Celine reminded me that I don't have to care about what others think about me as a mugger or anything. Because my friends don't mind, so if other people do, they are not my friends and so I don't have to care! :D
I can't believe how much Mr Yip is trying to help me, whether it is out of his own ego or he really thinks and hopes that I can excel. He even found a mentor for me in my physical chem part, which is like so shocking that I got a heart attack when he mentioned it. Almost as hard as the one I got when I saw him in LT1 on Wednesday. I think it's really part of God's plan that I stayed back after H3 today to ask Mr Yip a few questions, because he actually arranged his ex-student to come back to NJC and discuss with him about how he can help me with physical chem, since he was a silver medalist 1 batch back and he did H3 physics and he don't have to go for NS, yet. It's amazing how I stayed back until so late, all the way till his ex-student came, which was like past 6.30 when H3 lesson ended around 5 today and I intended to go home and rest. I thank God also that I brought 2 packets of crackers to school today, even though I wasn't hungry initially, but I made full use of them as I gave like 1 packet to Mr Yip as he was hungry. :D It's really awesome how God works, and I'm convinced to walk according to his great, pleasant and perfect plan for me. (: I also thank God that my parents came to fetch me from school today, even though they could only reach my school at about 8.30, and they haven't even eaten dinner. I'm happy that my little sister came too, and she didn't complain about being hungry or me finishing so late. (: Thank God.
Recently I got really caught up in asking for leadership qualities that I forgot even how to be a good servant, to God and to the people around me. It's just like how I couldn't swing my arms naturally as I tried very hard to correct my arm swing. I also need to tame my tongue desperately. I haven't been speaking to a lot of people nicely, especially Mr Yip since I knew him better, and even my OG frined laughed at how I demanded Mr Ng to check his letter tray by today. But I still can't believe that he left our assignments in TC16. Oh God please let our work be still there.
Thank God for the amazing grace. (: I'm feeling dizzy now, and has been feeling tired since H3 or even earlier. I really must rest more and not only do chem!! Jiayou Yiting! So many people rooting for you, so you can do it! Even God said that He's got great plans for me, so let me trust Him fully and rely on Him and not on myself or Mr Yip or my friends and family! No stress because if He is for me, who can be against me? (:
LOVE YOU LOTS! <3
P.S. I hope nobody follows Marcus Chan's nonsense, calling me grandmistress!!
17 January 2010
You don't have to be cool
Don't have to be smart
Don't have to be tough
Don't have to be cute
Don't need to know everything all the time
Anything any time
I just wanna be your friend
I just wanna be your friend
I like to be around you
When you're not trying to be somebody
Get well soon Celine! (: I know that God will bless you very much and that He won't let you suffer in that pain for too long. Take your time to rest and even if you don't come tomorrow we'll help you catch up with anything that you may miss. (: Love you to bits my dear!
Just got to catch up on facebook with the status of a few friends that I haven't been seeing for a while. I can't believe Gwen and Stuart are engaged! I was searching for this "Stuart Siew" guy whom Gwen was engaged to, and I realised that he's the one from XMChorale! What a surprise. :D Congrats for the good results and hope you'll get into NYJC and enjoy your 2 years there! (:
I'm helpless with the GP homework. Not in the mood to do any research. Or anything related to GP. I just want to spend this nice Sunday afternoon sleeping! D: Unfortunately I have to finish up my 2 GP factsheets and on top of that, do research for the Econs project and on a few indicators. :/ Don't really feel like doing but never mind, I'll put my mind to it and finish it as soon as possible! >:)
And MOE H3 Chem is starting tomorrow. Kept thinking that I would be sick and have a fever when he steps in, but I guess I won't be so lucky. :P Then I'll go for training after that, 1 hour behind everybody else. I thought about the issue to myself that I would rather skip the H3 lessons this year than to skip training, since I've skipped A LOT of trainings last year for orion, but I realised just recently that H3 is kind of like an official subject. Didn't see how I could have missed that part out when I thought about it since the end of last year, and now I feel a bit depressed even though I understand that trainings will be tough. I guess I'll just rely on God, since He's got everything all planned out and I'm sure that I'll manage my time this year just fine, with me being able to qualify for the finals for the Nationals this year! I'll be optimistic, because I serve the Man, and the Man has a plan. (: A great one that will prosper me no matter what, because the Father loves us so much. (:
I'm not going for Miss Eng's wedding this Saturday, partly because of church and partly because of, I can't believe I'm saying this, I don't know what to wear for the occassion, and it's not like I have any choice in my wardrobe any way. I think I'll just focus on going for service at 1.30pm and not be busy at somewhere else in the morning.. :x
Can't wait for 30th Jan though. Although it seems really unfair, how I decide to go for something one Saturday morning but not for another event, using church as an excuse. But I really want to go for it, looking at how much time I've dedicated for the whole of last year, even thoug I'm guilty of not being hardworking throughout the whole process. It's like, THE moment for me. And I can't wait to know what I got, giving all the credit to the God that I believe in. (: I'll be happy to receive whatever He rewards me, though I've been praying for a gold medal since a few weeks before the competition, I knew that I didn't do that great for both the theory and practical round. Therefore I thank God for even being able to make it into the practical round, so no matter what I get, it's from God and I'll treasure it. (: I'm also glad that I went for orion, which makes my work for chemistry this year much of a breeze and delight for me. (: I'm glad that most people from NJC who went for the competition got a medal, although it seems a bit unfair to me how people who joined in the beginning didn't even get a chance to compete, whereas people who came in last minute could get a reward for like 2 weeks of training. I know that it's a plan from God, but I do feel a pitty for Theresa and Anamicca still. ): I hope that this year Theresa will do well for her H3 chem! (: Shang Jun too. Never give up! You can always find Mr Yip for help, although he's a bit weird at times, but I'm sure he won't blame you for anything. (: There's only 17 of us this year so I'm sure he'll treasure everyone of us. (:
17 only. That brings me to my other point. Why would he even want a test for at the start of the year? So pointless. Unless he wants to design his lessons according to the common misconceptions and weaknesses of the class. Oh well, we'll just see about what he's going to do.
I really shouldn't be saying this. Cos I ain't seeing nothing yet. I shall just see what he's going to do. Any way I already know half the class. :P But then again, so does he.
God also made me realise that all the good things that has already been happening to me in my first week of school didn't just happen all of a sudden, but it came like a reward for my efforts and also as challenges to keep bringing myself to a higher level. The notification for my medal for SChO didn't just come out of the blue, but beacuse I worked hard last year and went for the competition to earn it. Likewise, I won't be turning 18 just because of the day 17 February 2010, but also because of the 364 other days that helped me grow. Therefore I must keep training myself and pushing myself, and not let myself sit in the comfort zone and be caught off-guard. Yes go forward! Keep moving and stop moving backwards.
All right, I should stop talking to myself and go do my GP homework. There's no reason why I can type 1000 words in half an hour but not be able to do my GP factsheets by, say, 6pm today if I start now. OK I'll try. Good luck myself.
Just don't give up
I'm working it out
Just don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
I think I'm going to dread 3.30pm tomorrow. Although it will just come and go like nothing happened.
Go on
Get out of my head
I'm on the wrong side of a parallel universe
Am I alive
Or just dead
I've been stumbling in the dark
Living in a crash world
Oh ya I forgot to say this. I thought about the Subaru challenge and finally decided not to do it unless it's in the holidays. Good choice girl. (:
Don't have to be smart
Don't have to be tough
Don't have to be cute
Don't need to know everything all the time
Anything any time
I just wanna be your friend
I just wanna be your friend
I like to be around you
When you're not trying to be somebody
Get well soon Celine! (: I know that God will bless you very much and that He won't let you suffer in that pain for too long. Take your time to rest and even if you don't come tomorrow we'll help you catch up with anything that you may miss. (: Love you to bits my dear!
Just got to catch up on facebook with the status of a few friends that I haven't been seeing for a while. I can't believe Gwen and Stuart are engaged! I was searching for this "Stuart Siew" guy whom Gwen was engaged to, and I realised that he's the one from XMChorale! What a surprise. :D Congrats for the good results and hope you'll get into NYJC and enjoy your 2 years there! (:
I'm helpless with the GP homework. Not in the mood to do any research. Or anything related to GP. I just want to spend this nice Sunday afternoon sleeping! D: Unfortunately I have to finish up my 2 GP factsheets and on top of that, do research for the Econs project and on a few indicators. :/ Don't really feel like doing but never mind, I'll put my mind to it and finish it as soon as possible! >:)
And MOE H3 Chem is starting tomorrow. Kept thinking that I would be sick and have a fever when he steps in, but I guess I won't be so lucky. :P Then I'll go for training after that, 1 hour behind everybody else. I thought about the issue to myself that I would rather skip the H3 lessons this year than to skip training, since I've skipped A LOT of trainings last year for orion, but I realised just recently that H3 is kind of like an official subject. Didn't see how I could have missed that part out when I thought about it since the end of last year, and now I feel a bit depressed even though I understand that trainings will be tough. I guess I'll just rely on God, since He's got everything all planned out and I'm sure that I'll manage my time this year just fine, with me being able to qualify for the finals for the Nationals this year! I'll be optimistic, because I serve the Man, and the Man has a plan. (: A great one that will prosper me no matter what, because the Father loves us so much. (:
I'm not going for Miss Eng's wedding this Saturday, partly because of church and partly because of, I can't believe I'm saying this, I don't know what to wear for the occassion, and it's not like I have any choice in my wardrobe any way. I think I'll just focus on going for service at 1.30pm and not be busy at somewhere else in the morning.. :x
Can't wait for 30th Jan though. Although it seems really unfair, how I decide to go for something one Saturday morning but not for another event, using church as an excuse. But I really want to go for it, looking at how much time I've dedicated for the whole of last year, even thoug I'm guilty of not being hardworking throughout the whole process. It's like, THE moment for me. And I can't wait to know what I got, giving all the credit to the God that I believe in. (: I'll be happy to receive whatever He rewards me, though I've been praying for a gold medal since a few weeks before the competition, I knew that I didn't do that great for both the theory and practical round. Therefore I thank God for even being able to make it into the practical round, so no matter what I get, it's from God and I'll treasure it. (: I'm also glad that I went for orion, which makes my work for chemistry this year much of a breeze and delight for me. (: I'm glad that most people from NJC who went for the competition got a medal, although it seems a bit unfair to me how people who joined in the beginning didn't even get a chance to compete, whereas people who came in last minute could get a reward for like 2 weeks of training. I know that it's a plan from God, but I do feel a pitty for Theresa and Anamicca still. ): I hope that this year Theresa will do well for her H3 chem! (: Shang Jun too. Never give up! You can always find Mr Yip for help, although he's a bit weird at times, but I'm sure he won't blame you for anything. (: There's only 17 of us this year so I'm sure he'll treasure everyone of us. (:
17 only. That brings me to my other point. Why would he even want a test for at the start of the year? So pointless. Unless he wants to design his lessons according to the common misconceptions and weaknesses of the class. Oh well, we'll just see about what he's going to do.
I really shouldn't be saying this. Cos I ain't seeing nothing yet. I shall just see what he's going to do. Any way I already know half the class. :P But then again, so does he.
God also made me realise that all the good things that has already been happening to me in my first week of school didn't just happen all of a sudden, but it came like a reward for my efforts and also as challenges to keep bringing myself to a higher level. The notification for my medal for SChO didn't just come out of the blue, but beacuse I worked hard last year and went for the competition to earn it. Likewise, I won't be turning 18 just because of the day 17 February 2010, but also because of the 364 other days that helped me grow. Therefore I must keep training myself and pushing myself, and not let myself sit in the comfort zone and be caught off-guard. Yes go forward! Keep moving and stop moving backwards.
All right, I should stop talking to myself and go do my GP homework. There's no reason why I can type 1000 words in half an hour but not be able to do my GP factsheets by, say, 6pm today if I start now. OK I'll try. Good luck myself.
Just don't give up
I'm working it out
Just don't give in
I won't let you down
It messed me up
Need a second to breathe
Just keep coming around
I think I'm going to dread 3.30pm tomorrow. Although it will just come and go like nothing happened.
Go on
Get out of my head
I'm on the wrong side of a parallel universe
Am I alive
Or just dead
I've been stumbling in the dark
Living in a crash world
Oh ya I forgot to say this. I thought about the Subaru challenge and finally decided not to do it unless it's in the holidays. Good choice girl. (:
15 January 2010
Appreciation
This hould have been here a long time ago, but I'm only posting it now all because my laziness and procrastination. I wrote this for Christmas appreciation. At that time, it was merely for the sake of writing because everybody is supposed to come up with a "creative 5-minute appreciation", and I still remember finishing it up on the bus on the day of sharing, although in the end we didn't get to present what we have prepared. I was still glad, because even if I had presented, it would be useless because I know that I didn't put in as much thought and effort as I intended to. It's not well written, but as I type it out and review it again, I hope that at least it did come out from my heart and not just for show:
Every year we celebrate
The birth of an amazing king
Who saved us, rescued us
So that we can be here today
He is my Shepherd, guiding me
And when I am lost, finding me
All I need to do is to ask
Because when I ask, I know I will receive
I'm embraced by His amazing grace
His perfect love for me, His child
Through Jesus I become who I am
Becoming more like Him each day
You teach me generosity
As Christmas is all about giving
That giving is a priviledge
And I'm blessed for you provide
You teach me righteousness
How not to do the wrong
And how to love my little sister
Every day a little more
You have shown me my family
Aside from the one I know
With different mothers but a common Father
Here are my brothers and sisters
Everybody I lay my eyes on
Is someone whom you have died for
Hence you teach me love and kindness
To be forgiving and pure at heart
How we all meet together is not by chance
Everyone here is here because of your plan
So let us keep loving one another
As you, our king, has loved us so much
And now, cell group appreciation:
I want to know each of you more
And share with you parts of my life
I want to put smiles on your faces
Because that will make me happy too
I'm really grateful to be here
To be a part of this family
Warm and cozy, loving and sweet
By my side when I need company
Each of you teach me so much
Every Saturday when we meet up
This family is so easy to love
Because it's full of adorable people
Every story, bitter and sweet
Our hearts come together, listening closely
When we pray for each other
Miracles will happen, and glory to our Father
After typing out my whole poem that I haven't read for a few weeks, I realised how much God has blessed me and reminded me to love and pray for the people around me. I haven't been doing my Quiet Time for the entire week, but God never gives up on me. He contines to talk to me and teach me throughout the week, whether I've been paying attention to Him or not. I'm really thankful for this, and I hope that through posting this poem, I'm honouring Him because I feel that this has come out from the bottom of my heart as I went through the poem again, especially after going through the excruciating process of typing it. I want to remind myself of all His love, mercy and grace, so I hope that I will take out my poem to read whenever I feel down or drifting from God. I'm sure that as I read it again and again, God will tell me something different each time and encourage me! (:
This week has been chaotic and tiring for me but I feel really lucky and blessed because I find all the good things happening to me:
Track trainings, although draining, are acting as a really good platform to not only strenthen me physically, but they also train my mental strength and keep challenging me to do better each time.
I haven't been sleeping much these days, sometimes to do my tutorials beforehand (as in before the lectures have finished on the topic), and although I've finished my probability tutorial (with many blanks) and my arenes tutorial and being thought of as a freak, I lost a lot of time for sleeping and to spend time with God. I want a change in this and want to revert back to the time when I felt so happy communicating with Him, because I know that He hears me and that I hear Him. (:
I also thank God for all sorts of things that happened to me this week, even though it's only the first week of school, and I've already been blessed with so much: chem rep, H3 pharmaceudical chemistry, my juniors' good O level results, my SChO 2009 results (I don't know what I'm going to get until 30 Jan), even getting Ms Sharon Phua as my GP teacher, and definitely the fact that I can hand in my GP holiday homework only next Tuesday (:D). I really need to do the factsheets. And the Econs project. Over the weekend. Even more less sleep or me now! Hahas. But I hope that through all the things that I need to get done, I won't stay away from God again because our relationship is what really matters, and He will bless me abundantly if I am faithful. (:
He has taught me a few things this week:
During training on Monday, I was training and felt very tired because I am quite unfit. Then I saw the girl's soccer team practising on the field. They looked happy and seemed to be enjoying their training, although I don't think it's any less tiring for them than for me. Then it struck me that I must enjoy what I'm doing, because I'm not doing it to just get a medal at the end of it all from the Nationals, but beacuse I enjoy running and training and I want to do well for my team. God wants me to be happy and not think of trainings as torture, so that I won't be finding excuses to skip trainings or miss out on track outings.
He also taught me to fight for the things I want, that I should do something if I want the change, so that I can be the change. Results are not rewarded, but earned. And I'm going to earn the results I want for myself! (:
Getting Ms Sharon Phua as my GP teacher also introduced self-discipline to me, to sit properly, to hand in my work on time, to be neat all the time, etc. All I need now is to put it to good news and not just put it aside. I'll try.
And just today, God told me to know what I'm fighting for, so that with a clear goal in mind, I'll be willing to roll myself there if I have to.
As I counted my blessings for this week, I'm really touched by the love that God has for us. And I realised that although people may find that life isn't fair, God is. You have to be there to know it, and I hope that I keep all the lessons in mind to bring myself even closer to God.
It's amazing how things work these day, all the anxiety, excitement, fun, hard work in a week. As the week is ending, I hope that I'll catch up with Him and put Him first in my life. I also want to be more organised and really make use of every second of my life and not waste any on stoning! D:
Another thing that God told me in the shower just now is that I don't need to live 100% in every moment of my life. Using track trainings to understand this, even sprinters don't run their 100% in every training. We do about 80-90%, and rarely 100% because it will take a very long time to recover. I will be recovering longer that it's worth my 100% is I really put in every of my effort, and it will be really tiring and inefficient most of the time. Therefore, the moral of the story is, DON'T live like you're dying. 75-90% is good enough for now. (:
Thank God for all that He has told me this week, and thank God for all the friends that made my week better that it would have been without any of their support. I hope Celine will come again, although I will be quite embarrassed if she reads my poem, and I hope that Madhu will be more honest and admit her true feeling. I can always introduce, and with S&T I don't I need to do much work. Hahas go girl! I'll root for you! xD
I probably won't come back for a while, but I hope that my life will still be just as good as it has been this week, with all the homework, challenges, responsibilities and with me enjoying every bit of my life with God. (: Jiayou everyone!
Every year we celebrate
The birth of an amazing king
Who saved us, rescued us
So that we can be here today
He is my Shepherd, guiding me
And when I am lost, finding me
All I need to do is to ask
Because when I ask, I know I will receive
I'm embraced by His amazing grace
His perfect love for me, His child
Through Jesus I become who I am
Becoming more like Him each day
You teach me generosity
As Christmas is all about giving
That giving is a priviledge
And I'm blessed for you provide
You teach me righteousness
How not to do the wrong
And how to love my little sister
Every day a little more
You have shown me my family
Aside from the one I know
With different mothers but a common Father
Here are my brothers and sisters
Everybody I lay my eyes on
Is someone whom you have died for
Hence you teach me love and kindness
To be forgiving and pure at heart
How we all meet together is not by chance
Everyone here is here because of your plan
So let us keep loving one another
As you, our king, has loved us so much
And now, cell group appreciation:
I want to know each of you more
And share with you parts of my life
I want to put smiles on your faces
Because that will make me happy too
I'm really grateful to be here
To be a part of this family
Warm and cozy, loving and sweet
By my side when I need company
Each of you teach me so much
Every Saturday when we meet up
This family is so easy to love
Because it's full of adorable people
Every story, bitter and sweet
Our hearts come together, listening closely
When we pray for each other
Miracles will happen, and glory to our Father
After typing out my whole poem that I haven't read for a few weeks, I realised how much God has blessed me and reminded me to love and pray for the people around me. I haven't been doing my Quiet Time for the entire week, but God never gives up on me. He contines to talk to me and teach me throughout the week, whether I've been paying attention to Him or not. I'm really thankful for this, and I hope that through posting this poem, I'm honouring Him because I feel that this has come out from the bottom of my heart as I went through the poem again, especially after going through the excruciating process of typing it. I want to remind myself of all His love, mercy and grace, so I hope that I will take out my poem to read whenever I feel down or drifting from God. I'm sure that as I read it again and again, God will tell me something different each time and encourage me! (:
This week has been chaotic and tiring for me but I feel really lucky and blessed because I find all the good things happening to me:
Track trainings, although draining, are acting as a really good platform to not only strenthen me physically, but they also train my mental strength and keep challenging me to do better each time.
I haven't been sleeping much these days, sometimes to do my tutorials beforehand (as in before the lectures have finished on the topic), and although I've finished my probability tutorial (with many blanks) and my arenes tutorial and being thought of as a freak, I lost a lot of time for sleeping and to spend time with God. I want a change in this and want to revert back to the time when I felt so happy communicating with Him, because I know that He hears me and that I hear Him. (:
I also thank God for all sorts of things that happened to me this week, even though it's only the first week of school, and I've already been blessed with so much: chem rep, H3 pharmaceudical chemistry, my juniors' good O level results, my SChO 2009 results (I don't know what I'm going to get until 30 Jan), even getting Ms Sharon Phua as my GP teacher, and definitely the fact that I can hand in my GP holiday homework only next Tuesday (:D). I really need to do the factsheets. And the Econs project. Over the weekend. Even more less sleep or me now! Hahas. But I hope that through all the things that I need to get done, I won't stay away from God again because our relationship is what really matters, and He will bless me abundantly if I am faithful. (:
He has taught me a few things this week:
During training on Monday, I was training and felt very tired because I am quite unfit. Then I saw the girl's soccer team practising on the field. They looked happy and seemed to be enjoying their training, although I don't think it's any less tiring for them than for me. Then it struck me that I must enjoy what I'm doing, because I'm not doing it to just get a medal at the end of it all from the Nationals, but beacuse I enjoy running and training and I want to do well for my team. God wants me to be happy and not think of trainings as torture, so that I won't be finding excuses to skip trainings or miss out on track outings.
He also taught me to fight for the things I want, that I should do something if I want the change, so that I can be the change. Results are not rewarded, but earned. And I'm going to earn the results I want for myself! (:
Getting Ms Sharon Phua as my GP teacher also introduced self-discipline to me, to sit properly, to hand in my work on time, to be neat all the time, etc. All I need now is to put it to good news and not just put it aside. I'll try.
And just today, God told me to know what I'm fighting for, so that with a clear goal in mind, I'll be willing to roll myself there if I have to.
As I counted my blessings for this week, I'm really touched by the love that God has for us. And I realised that although people may find that life isn't fair, God is. You have to be there to know it, and I hope that I keep all the lessons in mind to bring myself even closer to God.
It's amazing how things work these day, all the anxiety, excitement, fun, hard work in a week. As the week is ending, I hope that I'll catch up with Him and put Him first in my life. I also want to be more organised and really make use of every second of my life and not waste any on stoning! D:
Another thing that God told me in the shower just now is that I don't need to live 100% in every moment of my life. Using track trainings to understand this, even sprinters don't run their 100% in every training. We do about 80-90%, and rarely 100% because it will take a very long time to recover. I will be recovering longer that it's worth my 100% is I really put in every of my effort, and it will be really tiring and inefficient most of the time. Therefore, the moral of the story is, DON'T live like you're dying. 75-90% is good enough for now. (:
Thank God for all that He has told me this week, and thank God for all the friends that made my week better that it would have been without any of their support. I hope Celine will come again, although I will be quite embarrassed if she reads my poem, and I hope that Madhu will be more honest and admit her true feeling. I can always introduce, and with S&T I don't I need to do much work. Hahas go girl! I'll root for you! xD
I probably won't come back for a while, but I hope that my life will still be just as good as it has been this week, with all the homework, challenges, responsibilities and with me enjoying every bit of my life with God. (: Jiayou everyone!
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