21 December 2009

oh crap

So many homework, so little time.

Still got a lot of homework left sia. Sianzzz.


URGH. Life is tragic (quote Jacq).

11 December 2009

Tokio Hotel Automatic

Automatic
Automatic
You're automatic,
And your heart's like an engine
I die with every beat
You're automatic,
And your voice is electric
Why do I still believe?

It's automatic
Everywhere in your letter
A lie that makes me bleed
It's automatic
When you say things get better
But they never...

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

It's automatic,
Counting cars on a crossroad
They come and go like you
It's automatic,
Watching faces I don't know
Erase the face of you

It's automatic
Systematic
So traumatic
You're automatic

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

Automatic
Automatic
Automatic
Automatic

Each step you make
Each breath you take
Your heart. Your soul.
Remote-controlled
This life is so sick
You're automatic to me

(Love in you)
(Love in you)
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you?

Automatic
(There's no real)
Automatic
(Love in you)
Automatic
(Why do I)
Automatic
(Keep loving you?)
Automatic...


Lyrics taken from musicsonglyircs.com
Love it.






So why do I keep loving you?

08 December 2009

I'm losing the drive.

Hmm I'm running out of ideas to blog.

I'm in the blue tribe for YI camp! (: The blue tribe email was funny.
Don't think I can meet up for the cheering session on friday though... My mum just scolded me yesterday for "going out too much" and "going too far away", although I really don't see how. Oh well.

I pray that Celine will get well really really soon! (: Fully recover! And that we can go out together before Jocelyn flies! And Madhu it's all right, you'll always have us around. (:

Budget problem is popping out in my life since a few months ago. Don't see why. Or how.
And the bad news is, it's the month of Christmas! D:
Help!

Need to go and wash the dishes soon. My dad has started to bake recently but I don't think he will let me touch any of his ingredients or stuff. Hmph.

New Moon was kind of boring really. The whole movie was draggy, not much storyline, and the fight scenes didn't really appeal to me. They just seem pretty gross. Maybe it's just me.
The werewolves were cute though! :3 Jacob seems to be the cutest to me because of his brown fur. Just CUTE AND FURRY!! xD

I don't know what to change into tomorrow for the talk. The coach said not to wear something that's so informal as our PE shirts, but I don't know what I can change into after a sweaty and smelling training. Shall ask Ni Jun later. Hope Hui Qin is still in Singapore and that she can come for training tomorrow for the relay training!

Okay I know I said I don't have much to blog about, and I just typed a whole lot of crap. Letter Bee is nice by the way, so thanks Zhe Ching! (:

Hopefully my wallet will allow me to go out on 18 Dec for KFC outing, although I'm not very interested in Storm Warriors. I need to do as much homework as I can before YI camp! D: I'm close to finishing all my chemistry homework today I'm so proud of myself. xD But then again that's the only work that I did in the last one month plus. Oh man. :/

My dear, have fun shopping with your mum tomorrow! (: I'm assuming that you can, and I'm pretty sure about that! ^-^

Got to get off this seat now, before my mum comes and nags at me for chasing her away. :P

Heard some song and wanted to record down the lyrics, but I can't remember the lines right now, not even the name of the song or its melody. How sad.




Love you lots and miss you! <3

I try to hide my face and not show you my expression.

04 December 2009

Today is Friday. Ok I sound retarded.

I saw everything collecting dust
Make me hope there was somthing more

An extract from The Kingdom by Bethany Dillon. (: It makes me sad though.

Didn't think it was possible for me to do something that I believe is not true so naturally. Maybe that's what hypocritical means to me.

Oh well. Whatever.

Wish I could be less childish. In all sorts of age.
Wish I can act my age.

Come like a flood and saturate me now
You're all I want
Come like a wind and sweep throughout this place
You're all we want

It's not enough right now.
I need more.
More strength, more power, more will, more passion, more discipline.
More of you and less of me.
Much less of myself. It's never about me.
I need to contribute more to whatever conservation or discussion. D: I need to force myself to think more and not just sit around waiting for answers or anything like that.

I cannot afford to waste my time any more. Because I don't want to regret.


I need a goal. I need an aim. I need a target.
I NEED A PLAN.

Make me new

Just came back from camp. Quite tired but very fun. (:
Except for the fish.

I can't believe they thought of putting fish into people's tucked-in shirts down their back.

EEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!! Yuck!

But overall was fun. (: It was pretty well-planned I would say.
Thanks everybody who made this camp possible, who planned all the programmes, who participated. (:

WEEEEE! :D

Now I can bathe properly and sleep properly already.
Need to sleep early because I'm planning to train tomorrow morning. (: Got to work hard if I want to earn points for the team!

Guess that also means I'll be skipping the H3 lessons for the first 3 months and train for the Nationals! (: Good and bad. Thant's why need to study hard this holiday. Wait next year cannot catch up then I know.

I need more

LoL. Jacq and her Little Jamie. LOL.

I'm bad at Taboo by the way. :X

Greatness is earned. It's never rewarded.

Work hard! And give up on a lot more TV, FB and stoning.


The victory will come! (: And we will be glorious!


Welcome back Melissa and Celine! (: And hi to Zizhao too! :D Hope you're doing fine! Actually I don't even know which part of the world you're in right now, so if you see this, please tell me ok? (:




All the best on Sunday! (: I pray for good weather and for all the participants not to fall sick. Anyways I think it was weird for you and embarrassing for me, making a mistake in the date. Oh well. Let me just act like nothing happened and smile. (:


'Cos you're all I want

01 December 2009

Because you're with me, I will not fear.

Don't ever give up on hope. Believe in miracles. Don't just sit there and wait for one to happen, but work hard towards it.
And do not lie. Do not give excuses. Don't lie to yourself. Keep yourself in the light of truth, and the truth shall set you free.
Don't be afraid, because He will never forsake us.
Don't be discouraged, but have faith to witness the extraordinary. Do the natural and He'll do the super! (:

I suddenly have a lot of faith, so I thought I'd write it down. (:
Be encouraged! Never stop believing or working hard. Choose to trust and stay alert to avoid lies and deceptions. Even though we live in those everyday in our own comfortable lives, there are other plans for us and we must fight our battle and live victoriously everyday! Train ourselves to be tough, and not remain defeated. (:

Half my holiday has gone past, and I have to say that I haven't done much. The rest of the month will be even more busy for me, so I've got to work harder and push yself to make time and not be lazy! Work hard so that I can go get what I want! At least at the end of the day, I will know that I have put up a good fight for it. (:

Realised that I have yet to go out with my meimei and my jc clique... Will do it soon!
And I miss Celine and Melissa... Can't believe that they're already gone for 6 days... I've only realised how much I miss them yesterday. And they'll be coming home soon, save and sound and victorious! :D They must have grown a lot more than they can anywhere else. (: I'll be waiting for your return! (Though I'm sorry say that I've got track camp and I can't come to fetch you on Thursday...)
And 'A' levels' finally over! Just yesterday. Bet Madhu and Jocelyn will be busy for these few days...for Panda and ZH. :P It's okay I'll try not to be jealous. But make time for me when Celine gets back ya! :D

Watched 2012 again today, this time with my primary school friends. Clara got retained so she's going to poly next year, and Marilyn is still waiting for a job without interviews and resumes. Clara wants to watch it again because the effects are great, and Marilyn is sort of frightened by the dramatic scenes. :P And my mum asked me to bring my sister for a movie the next time I go for one. Hope we'll get to watch a good movie together! (:

I'd like to be hospitable, if I can put aside my bad habits and be a bit more loving, generous, etc. Well if I want to be nice, I need to renovate my own mind yah. Believe in what's good and hate what is evil. Bring love with me wherever I go. (:





<3


Now I just need to stop thinking about whatever my mind is bringing me to. Right now.

JUST LET GO. (:

27 November 2009

empty

Mmm, everything is finally over.
I'm still left with a reflection to complete. And lots of holiday homework.
Haiz.

So used to the busy lifestyle.
So used to going back to school everyday.
So used to seeing my friends everyday.
Suddenly, everything is sucked out and thrown away. That's what my school holiday is doing to me.
Now I have so much free time at hand I don't know what to do.
Don't have a routine life anymore. No more timetables to follow. I can go at my own pace, just make sure I finish everything before the next year.
I want to write myself a timetable or a to-do list, but I know that it won't work because I won't follow it. From past experience.
I'm setting a lot of things to do for myself, I don't even know how I'm going to finish everything. Hopefully, somehow.

I'm so not used to this. Although it's not the first time I'm having a school holiday.
It's like I'm lost.

I'm lost without you.

Oh never mind. Next year I'll be able to see everybody every single day again, yeah? (: I'll just have to wait for another 1 month or so.

I've never been so lost in my holiday... OUTING! xD
I guess that's what I need.
Hopfully it will cure everything. Including my schizophrenic personality.
Hahas.

Oh man I really miss everyone! :3 See you soon!


Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decide it's time to love again

Before too late
Before too long
Let's try to take it back before it all went wrong


Oh ya, I must remind myself to tell Mr Lim Boon Ping when my result comes out.
Hope he still remembers me and will be happy to hear about my result! (:

For now I'll just have to wait.
For everything to fall in place.
For my memory to get worse than it already is.
And maybe for me too finish my reflection. -.-

I hope my false sense of security will go away. Because it's NOT working at all.

All the best to the MT people! (: Waiting for your victorious return and amazing stories!! :D



Since you're not treating me lunch, we're better off strangers. Hmph.

Lol. I'm laughing out loud because it's not  funny at all.

24 November 2009

I really shouldn't be Facebooking.

Or else it will be the end of me.

Crap. I really must make use of my chance fully.
Or else the whole world is going to hate me.

A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE

I'm super happy!! (:

Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God.

Thanks for all those who has helped me and supported me in one way or another. (: Thanks Mr Yip for the guidance and great patiemce. :D

To the rest of the team, fret not. This is not a death sentence to your SChO life. Mr Yip says that there's still chance that you guys can get silver, so keep believing! (: For now, just keep the matter out of your mind and enjoy your holidays. (:

Jiayou for SAT Zhuoyun! (: You can surely do it! I believe in your potential! :D


I should go to sleep now. Later today, tomorrow and on the day itself still have to study and cram practical stuff into my brain. All the best to me! (:



Love you people: Madhu honey, Jocelyn love, Celine dear, Zhuoyun, Jing Wei, William, Marcus, Puay Weng darlin, Yi Long bestie, Avery, Shang Jun, Wang Han, Mum, Dad, Sister, Mr Yip.
<333

Goodnight! (:







Title: (Chemistry Olympiad) Practical round on Thursday 26th Nov







Body: Congratulations to the following students:






Hao Renjie


Zhu Yiting


Zhang Kejia


Wang Han






You need to look for me in college at 10.30am on Thursday to get your lab coats and safety googles before we set off for NUS.






You are allowed to wear casual attire, just take note:


Long pants (even for girls)


Covered shoes (for safety reasons)

22 November 2009

I'm trying to let go. I'm trying to let go, I'm trying to let go, I'm...

I feel like I'm going through a break up.

Yes, it's that bad.

Urgh.

21 November 2009

Creation VS Evolution

IDK what to say about this.

Seems ok but it's quite messy in my head.

Don't know what I don't know but don't know what I know either.

And the result is still not out yet.
It's like torturing me.
Don't know if I really should call up Mr Yip.
His links don't work and the videos are in bad quality/resolution can't really see clearly.



Oh man. IDK.

Haiz

剪不断,理还乱。

HAIZ.

20 November 2009

(:

I guess it's not going to come today.

But it's okay. I feel much better now. (:









I still love you. So I will beat him.

<3

Blogthing as promised. TADA!



Disliking History Says You Are Unpredictable



You are unpredictable, unusual, and challenging.

For you, history is too irrelevant and set in stone. You rather look toward the future.



You don't like to commit to anything. You're a dynamic person who is always growing and changing.

You are very interested in new ideas and technology. You like to keep up with the latest trends.




You Are Chocolat Orange Pocky



Your attitude: funky and flavorful

You are rich and deep - yet zingy and zesty.

People consider you to be the perfect partner in crime.

And you're wacky enough to keep people on their toes!




You Are Mostly Secure



In general, you feel confident and together.

But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure.

Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually.

So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!




You Are Genial and Polite



You are thoughtful and contemplative. You enjoy spending time alone with your thoughts.



You are generally confident and friendly with strangers. You are well mannered and sociable.



Money is fairly important to you. You aren't super greedy, but you enjoy spending money on yourself.



You tend to seek comfort, coziness, and stability in your life. For you, feeling at home is the best feeling ever.




You Are Cute!



Believe it or not, you are much more attractive than you realize.

You don't try too hard, and that's one of the cutest things about you.



You have a vibrant glow about you, and people are drawn to your energy.

You're not perfect, thank goodness. Your flaws are part of what's lovable about you.




You Are Rudolph



Sweet and shy, you tend to be happiest when you're making someone else happy.



Why You're Naughty: You sometimes stick that nose where it doesn't belong



Why You're Nice: Christmas would be a sad affair without you!




Your Hands Say That You Are Logical



You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills.



Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you.



Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life.



Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.




You Are a Yellow Light



You take life at a sustainable past. Fast enough to do a lot, but not fast enough to leave everyone behind.

You are open to whatever may come your way in life. You're very receptive.



You are quite thoughtful and knowledgeable. You have the perfect mix of reflection and experience.

You think before you act. You like to know some of the facts before you make a decision.




You Are a Werewolf



You're unpredictable, moody, and downright freaky.

You seem sweet and harmless, until you snap. Then you're a total monster.

Very few people can predict if you're going to be Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde.

But for you, all your transformations seem perfectly natural.



Your greatest power: Your ability to tap into nature



Your greatest weakness: Lack of self control



You play well with: Vampires




You Are a Discount Shopper



You love to get things as cheaply as possible. You live for sales.

It's partially because you like to save money, but it's also because you like the thrill of finding a fabulous deal.



Of all the types, you tend to shop frequently but rarely by. You keep an eye on prices.

Brand names are not that important to you. You know how to have style without collecting designer tags.




You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish



Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.

You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.

A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.

But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.




You Are "How Are You?"



When you ask someone what's going on in her life, you truly want to know. You are very genuine.

You are a compassionate and empathetic person. You want the best for everyone.



Your life is an open book, and you appreciate it when other people are open with you.

Once someone is your friend, she'll be a friend for life. You value friendship that much.




You Are a Doer



You are primarily concerned with what is actual. You tend to be a practical person.

You love to stay busy, and you are always immersed in projects.



You are in touch with your senses, and you enjoy indulging them. You're likely a crafter of some sort.

You crave different sensations in life, whether it's working with your hands, playing sports, or eating your favorite meal.




You Are a Log Ride



You prefer to live a fairly calm, relaxed life... with a few surprises thrown in.

You don't tend to get yourself worked up easily. You can roll with what life throws at you.

In relationships, you are steady and solid. You maintain a pretty broad perspective on what's going on.

That's not to say you can't get swept away. You're emotions run as deep as anyone else's.



Your life seems like it has been remarkably easy so far. But that's due to how you manage it.

You never stretch yourself too thinly, and you think out your decisions carefully.

Taking the time to enjoy each day is important to you, and you don't let your emotions rule you.

You stay the course and do what's right... knowing it will all work out in the end.



At your best, you are tolerant and understanding of other people's quirks.

You take "go with the flow" to the extreme. Even if you don't like where you're going.

At your worst, you repress your feelings and end up being a little tightly wound.

You definitely have some explosive emotions that occasionally come to the surface!




You Are Green Lights



Your holidays are a time of rest and solace.

You take time to reflect on the year that's passed.



You also enjoy connecting with friends and family you've lost touch with.

The holidays are your opportunity to remember what's important in your life.




You Are Blue



You are a philosophical and often inspired person. You are the master of ideas.

You are open to many points of view. You believe that it's important to communicate and not judge.



You have a worldly perspective, and you're always looking to broaden it.

You are a true people person, but you also value your solitude and personal space.




You Are Loafers



You are confident, powerful, and successful.

Hard working and business like, you always dress and act appropriately.



You are consistent and a bit conservative.

You aren't really susceptible to trends, although you always dress well.



While you tend to be formal, you know how to adapt to your surroundings.

So are professional at work... but more laid back when your with your friends.



You should live: In a huge city



You should work: In a competitive field where you can rise to the top

Still waiting. And still scared.

I even went to check last year's posts and results. It also came out at about the same time.
Theory on Tuesday.
Silver-or-not (qualification into practical round) result out on Friday.
Practical round on the next Thursday.
Final results are out on Boxing Day, a late Christmas present.

Nervous. Anxiety.
I'm not supposed to be scared. I've alread told a few time, if I can get into the next round, thank God. If not, I think I've done pretty well enough for a bronze so I don't need to get upset. End of story.
My heart and my mind doesn't seem to be listening to this bullshit.
DAMN IT.

Need to do something to distract myself.

I think I just need to know the result, although I may not be in for the next round. But at least like that I can finally 死心. I can rest my mind and put all my negative emotions to an end.

Mr Yip, faster leh...
I think I'll go Blogthings and do quizzes to distract myself. Yup that's what I'll do.

See you soon. Hope the result that I post will be a positive one. It's either I'm in, or I'm not.

Let's think positive. Ya let's.






My heart needs to be soothed.

I AM SCARED. BOOHOO. :'(

I want to forget but I can't.
I don't want to feel scared but I can't.
I don't want to feel suffocated but I can't.
I want to do something to distract myself but nothing is working.
I want to save myself but I can't.
I want to stop listening to emo songs but I can't.
I want to stop lazing aroung and do some work but I can't.
I want to cheer myself up with happy songs but it's not working.
I want to know the result but it's not coming out.
I want to cry but tears won't flow out.
I want to tell myself that this feeling is not real but my heart won't listen.
I don't want to fall in love with this but my mind can't take control.

The Girl Who Can't Break Up, The Boy Who Can't Leave.


And no, the end of the world is nowhere near.
At least it won't happen like what how the movie portrayed.
All of us are given a promise, that the world won't experience a flood that will wipe out mankind again.
And I believe in this promise.
I have faith.
I mean, the scientists are not building any ark right now, right?
I find everything so much like bullshit. Because nothing is happening like what I believe.


There ain't no part time love.


If it's possible, my heart will break right this moment.
Or it would have been broken a long time ago.
From all this pressure, all the sorrow and all the pain.
Which washed all the happiness away.

But I can choose to be optimistic.
I can choose to stay happy and blissful.
I can choose to smile...


Oh man I'm typing bullshit.
Thanks ah Mr Hussain.


I need a hug, a shoulder to lean on, a flower to talk to, a rock to crash this computer.

I need a heart to love.




I don't know why I'm like that these days. I'm simply too scared.

Need to ask Celine for her prayer request.


Someone recommend a happy song. Fill my heart with peace.

Just ask the damn thing to come out. It's torturing me like crazy. I'm going mad.

And no, I don't want to watch 2012 for 4 times. But it's probably not up to me to decide.

I need to watch somthing heartwarming, touching, something with a happy ending.












I need you.

19 November 2009

Goodbye, my friends!

Go away! D:<

Tollen,
Fehling,
Henderson,

Beer Lambert,
Faraday,
Planck,
Williamson,
Clemmenson,
Friedel-Crafts,
Wolf-Kishner,
Newman,
enantiomers,
Crystal-Field theory,
Boyle,
Charles,
alpha, beta, gamma, delta,
Arrhenius,
Benedict,
2,4-DNPH,
MYHZ,
and all their friends!

Shoo, shoo! Get out of my head!!

(Sadly,) SEE YOU NEXT YEAR! :/







*Sobs*

2012

Humanity. The good and the ugly. The bad and the worse. The unfairness of life. Understanding and being unheard. Friendship. Love. Fate. Hope and the hopeless. Money makes the world go round.

A lot of ugly truths are reflected. Dramatic scenes. How lucky the main character is.

I hate the part where the lady called Tomorrow had to die (I think that's her name in the movie). AND the part where her underground boyfriend (the really cute pilot) sacrificed himself. I didn't think much yesterday, but now that I think about it, maybe he died willingly for her. He took that risk for her.
At least the rich fat man died. Even though he saved his sons. Sorry. :/

A lot of scenes that made my  heart beat fast. Like the buildings collapsing and the ground breaking and stuff. My friend calls it a typical Hollywood movie. But the effects were great. (: The atmosphere was there. You can feel everyone holding their breaths! :0

Anyways, thanks for the great time I was able to have yesterday! :D Although you had to miss astronomy. ): But it was wonderful and I haven't went shopping or watched a movie in the cinema for very long. Thank you for the time we spent together. (:

Tomorrow we'll probably get to know who's in and who's not. Mr Yip has already put up the link of videos of chem prac on KM, waiting to be discovered. It's quite scary, now that I think about it. I was dying for tomorrow to come since after the paper on tuesday, but then again, now I don't want it to come so soon. My heart is in a mess. I just hope that at least I go to the second round and have a feel of what it is. :x At least I won't feel left out if the rest of the team is going together...

Didn't have any holiday plans at all last week, and suddenly it seems pretty full! :D The outside world, here I come!

I'm getting random here, jumping from one topic to another. But my mind is all mixed up right now. I can't think straight at this point of time. Don't know if it's from the lack of sleep or the lack of brain exercise. :/


I still hope somehow we can be strangers. That I didn't make that decision. That I wasn't so stupid as to trap myself for no reason. But then I would have missed the chance of meeting the rest, so I don't really know how I should feel right now. I'm one confused person.

Don't be governed by your emotions.

Oh well, everything has happened HAS happened. There's nothing I can do to undo everything, every choice and decision I make, at every cross road or junction I come across. Just appreciate the best that I have now, which is like such a generous gift to me already.

Thanks fot the memories then. Since I can't forget.

I don't want to be so easily controlled by my feelings, which I know are not real anyway, but I just can't find the way out. It must have been TV dramas. It must have been.

I don't know! I don't know anything!!


Sorry for the messy thoughts reflected above. I'm just one confused girl, so please forgive me.

I don't even know what I'm talking about myself. It must be nonsense.


Quote of yesterweek:

"All the questions I set, I find from Googles."

-THE END-













<3


Stop fooling yourself, Yiting. :'(

17 November 2009

IT'S ALL OVER.

Thank God. For walking with me all this while. For being with me and supporting me. I'll trust God to do the rest. (:

Just thank God that it's over man. After all the anxiety and shivering in my bed and hearing about Marcus Chan's want-to-puke, all I want now is to hit the bed.

Going Bugis to shop with Zhuoyun tmr! (: Unexpected things have been happening lately. This, and Celina asking me to study together. I checked my message a few times to make sure that it's Celina with an "a" and not Celine with an "e". Never in my wildest dream would I think of that. It's really by God's amazing work and care for me to place these people and events in my life. You're probably already tired of hearing this, but still, I want to thank God for staying close in my life.

Another amazing thing is that Madhu can keep her 4 H2!! It's super amazing and awesome I tell you! Super happy for her and over the fact that we can have all our lessons and breaks together again! :D Except for GP which I will probably end up in GP class which I know nobody at all again. Oh well, I'm sure wherever I go, God will place awesome people by my side. (:


Here are some photos for today! I felt really great after the paper, although it was a bit too easy for me to get the piece of metal that I want. Never mind I'll trust God and leave everything to His hands and His plans. (: Sorry for the poor resolution. It's taken using my phone and Zi Xian's phone. Not everyone is here though. Kejia and Renjie and Wen Cong and the 2 vietamese scholars went of already.


Presenting to you the NJC SChO team! (:


Fun shot! :D


Zhuoyun and I


Mr Yip. He insisted on the matching thing (Madhu knows :D).


Yup. One year has gone past and it's finally over. No more training even if we get into the practical round next Thursday. But I'll always remember the good and bad times we spent together! (:
I'm just glad that I sent that message yesterday. (:

Hopefully I'm needed at NUS on 26 Nov! Best of luck people! (:


And Esther meimei don't worry about work. It always starts out tough, but I'm sure the situation will improve with time and with you trying harder! Go my love!


And thanks to my baobeis that I can last till today. A big hug to Jocelyn love, Celine dear and Madhu honey! (:
Love you guys sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! <3












Keep smiling Yiting! (: And jiayou for track on Thursday. Then Shop for Clara's present on Friday. But I don't really know if 2012 will still be showing on 1 Dec leh. I'll try to make myself free. (:

16 November 2009

TOMORROW

We've got about 86,400 seconds till our BIG day.

Go everybody. NJC jiayou!








<3

14 November 2009

We're better off strangers.

Today's service was great! :D My biggest take away is to learn how to trust. Even trusting myself is an act and belief that I trust God. So ya trust yourself too Yiting! (:

Must learn to shut my mouth. Why can't I take defeats and failures? Just admit that you are wrong or just let it be! Stop arguing. HATE IT WHEN I DO THAT. Just kick the habit! >:(

Really glad that I've came to know God. Even though the difference may not be BIG, and even though I'm still sinning, I can feel a change in my path, my lifestyle, my decisions and maybe even some of my beliefs. And God is encouraging me to have more faith instead of scolding me for the little faith that I've had for the past few days (no excuse Yiting). Just talk about simple things: me catching the bus and arriving in school in time this morning, catching the bus back home as I chased it while it's sort of stuck in the long traffic jam, and waking up in time to alight at my stop and not sleep all the way to the Yishun Interchange. When I was chasing the bus after cell group, I thought that the bus might have drove off as it had driven to the bus stop for quite some time and I can't really see the bus and the bus stop, although I prayed to God that I can catch this bus home. But some part of me rebuted and told me that I cannot have such little faith and to trust in the Lord, so I believed that I will be able to catch the bus. Finally, with some running, I got to the bus stop and the bus was still there, stuck in the jam! And some how the bus driver saw me and he opened the front door before I could signal to him that I want to board the bus. When I boarded the bus, I thanked him and saw him already smiling at me, so I thought it was quite amazing as in it's as if he knows I want to board this bus since just now. And I reflected on my faith and I realised that I must be able to believe in God, from the small things that He has showed me to have faith in. If I can't even start with having faith in small things, how can I expect Him to perform BIG miracles for me? And of course thanks a lot for all the love, care and support from Passionates! <3 You guys are AWESOME! :3 Jiayou Melissa for your exams next week! I'm sure you can do it, be it having faith or doing well for your papers. God knows what He's doing. (: And I'm glad to have known Him. Although it's all part of His plan. :P

So, today was great. (: Things are going well, by the look of it. Yiting you must also jiayou okay? Gold medal for SChO! (Stop saying that it's not possible. I'm already promised with a miracle. (: )


Thank God for all the people that He planted in my life, be it to help me or to help them. Everyone appears for a reason, and I don't need a reason to be nice to anybody. You can do it! (:





But still, I think that my life would have been much better if I've never met you or known you personally. It's even worse than saying hi to my hi-bye friends and stuff. This sucks because I don't understand anything.

Never mind. I shall ask God.

But we're still better off strangers.
Oh well, see how it goes. Since We can't really ignore each other, like, look in each other's eyes for 3 seconds, and just turn away without even acknowledging each other, right?

Stop lying.


Peace. (:


<3

13 November 2009

UNDEFINED IS MY IDENTITY

 
I still love you.
Thank you Zhuoyun for the food ytd! (:
LOVE IT! <3

Really really thanks alot for showing me kindness and generosity. Why is it so hard for me to show them to my own friends sometime?????

And thank God for helping with the allergy. I'm ashamed of the little faith I portray. Help me to build up my faith! Now that I know that bad things are occurring because good things are happpening and the devil doesn't want to see that happen. Therefore it is actually a good sign that these things are happening. (: I know my understanding of the whole issue is actually very shallow, but keep my faith there, okay? Don't stop believing! (:

I pray that the mission trip preparations go well, and that Celine can sell ALL her cookies! Look forward to it! :D

Good luck to Zhuoyun for being the future star of Singapore! (Or maybe she wants to go back to develop her talents :D) For all the good things that she has done, I'm sure God will protect her all the way and lead her to success! (: Go girl! She's really multi-talented I tell you. She did SMO, filmed, going for SChO next tuesday, chose to do NTU H3 physics (semi-conductor), idk what else she can do! Her life is great! (: All the best to the Chemistry Olympians (as Mr Yip likes to call) for next Tuesday! (: Hopefully this time we break the record of NJC for SChO! >:D

Speaking of which, I should get going. Study study! Do it now and not regret later. My motto: I am, therefore I can. Madhu say's it's cool so yeah~ :D And I came up with it myself! Cool right? Hahas.

Everything that I can do, it will be through the power and mercy of Him. So jiayou! Put in MY best so that He's efforts are not wasted. HE'S FIGHTING FOR ME! (thanks Mel for telling me that (: and thank God for telling me that through Mel, sending her by my side when I needed it!)


Go Yiting. ILY. <3

FRIDAY THE THIRTEETH

I guess they don't call it for no reason.

Because on this day, a girl happened to be chasing her bus to school,

and she fell down. And in a very unglam way.

Her butt still hurts now.


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THE END

11 November 2009

Joke of the Day

Jingwei: I'm not staying overnight (for the camp). Nobody is staying back!

Mi Yip: Why? You really think I'm a paedophile ah?!?


Okay Zhe Ching, I promise I'll go to the journal skin website you introduced to me. After 17 Nov.
See, everything revolves around 17 Nov.
Oh man.

10 November 2009

The Line

Have to know where to draw the line, so that I won't cross over.

Then I'll be conscious of what to do and what not to do.

But where exactly to draw the line? And what is the line that I need to draw?


Seriously, idk.

My Blog Shall Stay Stagnant

Till 17 November.

Right now, everything evolves around 17Nov.
My track training, which I only intend to resume after 17 Nov.
KFC outing, which I told Suven to push it after 17Nov when she asked if I'm free this week.
Class outing and PW outing, which I cannot go because of training for 17Nov.

And now, I tell myself not to blog till 17Nov.


I'm going to go crazy about this date.

Anyways, I actually like Wen Man's idea of a happy family.
So envious.
Even though everything is solved, it wasn't done with me around.
I was either sleeping or at school.
So now it feels really empty and strange. Like nothing just happened.
Despite the screaming directed to me this morning.

Still remember that stare from her eyes. Wasn't really scared but more of surprised.
And sad. That the stare is for me.
Sad that I don't know what's going on. I don't even think she knows what's going on.
I think it doesn't matter to her. She just need somebody to stare at after being angered and irritated.

Oh well.

Forgive, Yiting. It's a virtue and it's holy and righteous to do that.


I really hate this keyboard now. So hard to type.


My iPod Nano...
Really don't have time to work. If I want to catch up in my studies.

Never mind. I shall see how.

Can't believe my rabbit went to cut bangs. :D Can't wait to see her new hairstyle! ^ ^

Selene is the Greek goddess of moon. Get a life la. Although I know that's just what you like to do.


Oh ya hasn't messaged my bestie to ask about his OP.
And his secret! :D

And need to hear something big from Suven.
And tell her something big and outdated from my side as well.
Talk about information exchange.

My sister is creating a blog! (: Maybe I should change my perspective, because the minute I saw that I was like "What does she need a blog for?" But I shouldn't think that way. Instead, I should give her suppport like "Wow! You're creating a blog?" and ask if she needs help. Remember not to sound sarcastic, Yiting. I think she's also scared to let me know that she has a blog. That's why she don't dare to come in and use the computer.

Less fierce. More love.

Cool man. I just came up with this on the spot.
Oh crap I'm becoming like him.

My sister is watching Teen Titans! (: Really want to join her to watch but I've got work to do.

But 15 minutes can't hurt right? HEHEHEh.
Now you know why I always don't have enough time.

Really love LC's blog. IT'S JUST SO FUNNY AND LAME! He can talk about Panasonic the brand being a good name, and Sonic the hedgehog working for Panasonic. Damn cute. Must go visit the link from the right of my blog. The one that says leonard. Do check out! (:

But he doesn't really blog. Shall persuade him to blog the next time I see him online. I'll be his #1 follower! xD

My muscles are aching all over. Arms, stomach, butt. The stomach one is the worst because it hurts when I sneeze. Ouch.


Yes. Time to stay away from the Internet.

Don't miss me too much. Hahas.

Take care! (:





<3

It's almost tomorrow.

Okay. My "a little while" proves to be a bit too long.

THIS IS BAD.

If this goes on, I'll have to ban myself from using the computer. That means no blogging as well! :O


Oh man.

Gotta take control. Go Yiting you can do it.

And hope my sister will be fine tmr morning. She won't feel fainty or anything because she skipped dinner. Hope her relationship with mum and dad will be repaired. ):
Just play the stupid piano, damn it. I know it's hard and I'm in no position to say this, but please just do it. Don't do things that you'll regret. It'll break my heart as well. ):
I'm becoming like Mr Yip. Got to stop being influenced! D:


All the best for your OP tmr bestie! (: After that PW will be all over!! :D
Can't wait for tmr man bestie. *grin*

Yup I must treasure my time as well. Ad my health. They are God-given! Must make full use of my time and please do get enough sleep everyone, including myself.

I can't believe I set my alarm clock at the wrong time AGAIN. Urgh. I need to change my sense of time. I need a make-over. A renovation.

Cut the crap. The more you talk like that, the less likely you're going to do it.

Okay fine.


Yes, above is my subconscious potrayal of my schizofrenia. Celine, Madhu and Jocelyn should be familiar with that. YES I TALK TO MYSELF IN MY HEAD. And sometimes even in real-life when no one is around.

Talk about being crazy.

Actually, I ponder on this issue. Like whether it is really me talking to myself or it's God.

No can't be. The other ME always scolds me stupid for doing things wrongly. It can't be God, He's not like that.

Luckily.

Okay so the other ME stop scolding myself and saying negative things about me. Even though I already know that that other ME loves me.

Getting confused? Not to worry. I'm confused typing that too.


So ya bestie, you know what to do tmr eh? :D

Hahas. I'm evil.... :P














Not.


Oh great. It's already tmr! I mean today!! :O
Okay stop cconfusing myself already.

I'm still subconsciously acting as if I still have my OP sticker on my shirt. Although it's now somewhere in my bag since like 2pm. Idk why. Should paste my sticker in my sticker album soon to stop this paranoia.





Screaming angry girl: GO BATHE ALREADY!

All the best Celine for the skit! (: Just rmb: Don't smile when you're not supposed to. Love you. (:







Oh, and that screaming angry girl is the other ME. HAHAHAS.

09 November 2009

Right now, I just want to recieve a flower.

Just one would be enough. And maybe a shoulder to lean on.


Well, if you boarded bus 852 towards Yishun Interchange, at around 1905hr at the bus stop after MacRitchie Reservoir, you'd probably see a crazy girl smiling to herself.

Okay, maybe she's not that crazy, but she's crazily in love.



With God.

This is thanks to a meaningful conversation with Jingwei, which was in every way awkward.
We talked about promos and H3 and olympiad, and I was saying that I hope that he can get into external H3 after he get his gold medal at SChO to appeal for a placing in external H3. And I was saying that I'll probably be super happy to even get a honourable mention.

After he alighted at the MacRitchie stop, I realised I can't expect this from me. With all the support from my friends, family and teacher (not so much from the teacher though), I just can't bear to let all of them down. AND to let myself down after going for the training for so long. I asked God to give me the power to last through the remaining days and study as much as I can to get the gold medal I asked from Him. Although He says that it's alright and He'll love me regardless of my achievements, or the lack of it, I'm still determined to work much harder than what I'm doing right now. Yes Yiting, go for it. I prayed that I cannot be satisfied with a honourable mention instead of a gold, and I prayed for His power to last me through. And I prayed really really hard that I can go to the practical round, even though it falls on my KFC outing day (I can't believe Alvin quitted!).

And then, I felt His warm hug around me.
It's just amazing.

And I became like so happy and kept smiling on the bus! (:
I'M IN BLISS!!!



Because I'm in love with God.



It's the most wonderful gift to know Him. Thank God for sending Celine to my side to help me to know ye. (:
She's like my angel! And my deer/rabbit (HEHEHEh).
And of course, thank God for all the wonderful and supportive friends I have around me, even my loving family that I didn't realise and appreciate.
Yes, I'll try to do the best I can and have no regrets when I receive whatever I'm going to recieve. Even if it's nothing, I'll feel happy working hard at least for these last few days (though I wasted most of my time throughout the year). Thank God and God bless! ((:


And thank God that PW and OP is finally OVER!!! XD Thank God for blessing me with strength and my whole group and the second group that we did audience duty for. (:

And I'm really glad I made the decision to go for track training today even though my orion lesson ended at like 5 plus and the girls already did their warm up and drills. I'm happy that I trained today and I know that I'm weak. Work hard, Yiting.

And I'm starting to appreciate my family and even Mr Yip's efforts more. I thank them for all they have done for me, and I wish that I'll be a good bet for them. GO YITING! SUPERCHARGED!!

Jiayou Mr Yip. Work hard tonight. If necessary till next morning.

Hahas no la. Do get enough sleep okay? If not how to run your marathons??

For those who easily misinterprete and like to get the wrong idea, I'm just starting to really appreciate his efforts for us and that he did it out of his own will, although it may be to fulfil his ego (sorry I spilt your secret :P). Hahas just take care! If not who's going to be there to feel proud for training us when we get our medals? (:

大好きfor all your effort! (: Appreciate it!

Yay.

Okay I must go offline soon. But do let me indulge myself in blogs and other random stuffs first for a while more, okay?

P.S. I love the dance version of Gee by Girls' Generation. Although I don't know at all what they are singing about, the song just makes me really happy! :D That's also why I kept smiling on my way home today. Hahas!


P.S.S. To Celine: If Mr Yip remembers correctly, Selene is the Greek Goddess of Moon and they name the element in the periodic table "Selenium" after that Greek Goddess. So be proud, Celine. Be a proud rabbit.
:D





幸せね~ @^_^@

08 November 2009

Here's a song
For the one who stole my heart
And ran so far
That cupid couldn't catch her

Here's a song
For the kid who aimed so high
He shot her down

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So cute la! Don't really understand, but it's just cute. :3

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I live by faith and not by sight

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I'm not gonna live by what I see
I'm not gonna live by what I feel
Deep down I know that you're here with me

...

Happy! (:


P.S. Oh and oh my gosh congrats Renjie! He's at least getting a silver at the Singapore Phycis Olymipiad 2009! :D All the best for the practical round!!

blogging about yesterday

Yesterday was Saturday.
A lot of things happened.

Went to school with my sister. After lesson, we saw 2 birds crossing our path.
Sis: The bird is crossing the road!
*1st bird flew across*
Me: The bird don't need to cross the road. It can fly what!
*2nd bird walked/ hopped cross the road*
Sis: Yay! It crossed the road! :D
Me: So cute!
Sis Ya lor so cute!
Me: No I'm saying that you are cute.
Sis: Hehe...

Hahas. She's so cute.
I must really treat her better. >:( And not just her, but also my family and friends.
They deserve better than this for the love that they shower on me!

Anyways, I discovered something.
All the rabbits have this laugh:
HEHEHEh.
Ya.
So strange right. But they really all laugh like that.
Haiz. :/


WHEN TRUTH COLLIDES.

What will you do?
I made a new friend (sort of), Jie Lin, who was also from NJC! (:
She's now in her uni year 2.
Studing engineering.
And she wants to be a scientists! (:
Just like my sister. :D
So cool.

Anyways, thanks Passionates for the study bible!
It's really great, even though I only read a bit of it yesterday.
Definitely useful! (: Now can better clear my doubts when I have any!

Yay.

Must jiayou already. OP tmr and no time to waste for olympiad also.
Not going to stay overnight for the camp, btw.
And I can't believe what Marcus from the trios were thinking, asking Mr Yip what's paedophile in Chinese!

And guess what his answer was.



怪叔叔!








LOL! They damn funny!

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR SUVEN! (: Hope that all your wishes will come TRUE! ((:

Got to practise OP now. It's in about 12 hours time.

All the best to everyone! (:



Madhu, hope you're okay. <3

06 November 2009

Thank God.

Really really. Never thought I'd be so happy for a long time. YAY! :D
Super happy and excited... I'm in the competition! Now, all there is left to do is to work hard and, well, work hard. CHIONG AH!!!!!!!

Really super duper happy and suprised. I'm on cloud 9!! :D
156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156. 156.

ARGH SO HAPPY!

I don't know what else to say already.
Thanks for always always being by my side. I don't understand how you can have so much faith in me, but I'll do my best to give my 100% faith in you as well. (:
Yes. Living life with you I feel alive.


*It's mind over matter. If you don't mind, then it won't matter.

Yes go Yiting. And all those who still haven't done OP and who have stage fright. Don't care about how they look at you... It's not about them man! Just look straight into their eyes and entertain them and show your enthusiam about the project (but it is actually being enthusiastic that PW is over! Hahas). Yup just do your best best best man. It'll be over once and for all, so take it to be something fun! (:

I'm determined to finish PW tonight! Go Yiting! It's just editing Q&A, I&R and write out my script and practise it, right?

Anyways, must keep reminding myself to drink more water and to sleep more (IF possible) so that my sore throat won't come back! Must heal soon, throat! (:

And this is so cute can. My 10-year-old sister was playing with lego and I saw this yesterday night.

She's so cute! She used 2 window thingys to make the humps of the camel! :D Super cute sia.

Good to be a kid. Don't need to care so much.

Still super happy. :)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Ya.

I think I've made my prayers more audacious this week, and more specific. But I need to take more action! Work on it, girl. Work on it.

Thanks my meimei Esther for having so many plans for our holiday! (: Can't wait to see you too! <3 But I think my mum doesn't like the idea of disturbing others by going to their house. ): Never mind, I'll work on it to see what's good for us! >:)

All the best to NJ042, NJ043, NJ044 (Yay that's us! :D), NJ045, and NJ046 on our OP on Monday, 09-Nov-09. It'll be over soon! (:

Love you guys. <3

05 November 2009

Oh man. I facebooked again.

URGH. Release me from this bondage!

Control. :/

Revival (:

Abandoned my blog for very long. after visiting a few of my friend's blogs today, I've decided to write sth on my own too (:

Well, promos over. Results over. School over. Left with PW, track and chem olympiad.
12 days. Oh man.

This is bad. I must do sth. Mr Yip to the rescue!
Ya right. He just sits there and say
"I don't want to talk leh. You all talk"
"I'm tired already la. You all contribute can or not?"
"..."

Well, I didn't go to school today.
Didn't go for track.
Didn't go for orion.
Wasn't feeling well.
But better now (:
Thank God.
Just left with a bit of sore throat that I need to get rid of before OP.
URGH. OP.
I'm not confident of myself. I'm scared of staring into other people's eyes. I'm afraid of eye contact. I'm scared that people won;t respond when I ask questions. I'm afraid that I'll exceed the 5min limit. I'm scared that I can't answer my own question during Q&A.


Scared what scared. You've already come so far to the OP. Which is in 4 days. Come on.

I'll be super charged on that day! I'lleradicate my fears! D:< I'll have faith and confidence and not jelly legs (hahas poor Madhu). I'll fight for an A for PW!
Well, I guess I'll just have to practice A LOT and not tremble on the actual day, right?

As easy as said.

Anyways, I've been wasting my whole of today. Other than doing PW stuff, I spent just way too much time online searching for chem resources (dunno for what), Facebooking (I hate Facebook), and just bring online. Damn.

Oh well, at least I tried to finish Q&A (thanks wenman and celine!), I&R 2nd draft, and sent them along with my new new new script to Mr Hussain.

Nothing to worry about. Huh.

Oh btw the cookie monster on the Google page is so cute.
Hahas.
I'm so random :D
And so proud of myself for that :P

I must fast on Facebook! Someone please slap me if I go to Facebook! D:
It's evil! D:<

Hahas.

Really proud of 09SH09 for promoting as a class! :D
WE ARE SUPER!
Sorry to those who have to drop one of their H2 subject to a H1. Hope we still can have most of our lessons together!
Let us not be separated.


And I haven't been to own blog for so long. Thanks Jia Lin for your concern! (:
If you ever read this, must tell me how you are doing ok? (:
<3

And it's raining again. Almost couldn't see this morning cos it was so dark. Keep using backspace :/

And yup I agree with Fiona (: Be gratefull of the things that you have.

But always strive for better ones! :D
Cos our potential is only limited by out own belief. Yay.

And must really congratulate Suven for advancing! GREAT JOB! I'M SO HAPPY FOR YOU!! :'))))
Let's go on study dates soon! <3

Ya must work hard in the holiday. Mentally and physically. Must get prepared for SH2, Nationals, H3 (if I can get it), and my iPod Nano!!!! MUST FIND WORK TO DO despite my tight holiday schedule for track trgs. Jiayou! Go girl! (:

And yes alicia. Letter to crushes are so cute! X3

Envy those who have a goal and have someone to love. (:

I LOVE MY PARENTS AND M SISTER AND MY FRIENDS!! <3 MUARCKSSSSSS!

I think it's so cool (though I'm just acting):
"If my answer is わからない, how would you respond?"






Finally. Everything's coming to an end.
It means a brand new start! (:
Note to self: pls complete all the holiday hw. DON'T SLACK! D:

Just do your best and do what you can.

It's okay now. Cos He says nevermind.

Love YOU!

(:

ILY too Madhu. <3

Ket our faith get thru this, and mov eon to new challenges.

GOLD! Let me glorify you! (:
We are golden. Because of you.

Thanks alot! <3

01 February 2009

Cosplay @ NP! ^_^

Hahas my 1st time to a cosplay!


Cardcaptor Sakura! O.o


Vampire Knights?! (I think...)


My friend! ^_^ (and she really knows how to play the trumpet!)


My friend's friend! Edward from FMA! (so cute!! ><)


Weird combo... Lols.


Shana and friends


Lelouch from Code Geass XD


C.C and Euphemia from Code Geass XDD (my (another) friend say the Euphie here is nicer than the one in the anime... :x)

I want to take part in a cosplay too next time! (After I earn some money... All the costume wigs and equipments so expensive... ><) :D