empty

Mmm, everything is finally over.
I'm still left with a reflection to complete. And lots of holiday homework.
Haiz.

So used to the busy lifestyle.
So used to going back to school everyday.
So used to seeing my friends everyday.
Suddenly, everything is sucked out and thrown away. That's what my school holiday is doing to me.
Now I have so much free time at hand I don't know what to do.
Don't have a routine life anymore. No more timetables to follow. I can go at my own pace, just make sure I finish everything before the next year.
I want to write myself a timetable or a to-do list, but I know that it won't work because I won't follow it. From past experience.
I'm setting a lot of things to do for myself, I don't even know how I'm going to finish everything. Hopefully, somehow.

I'm so not used to this. Although it's not the first time I'm having a school holiday.
It's like I'm lost.

I'm lost without you.

Oh never mind. Next year I'll be able to see everybody every single day again, yeah? (: I'll just have to wait for another 1 month or so.

I've never been so lost in my holiday... OUTING! xD
I guess that's what I need.
Hopfully it will cure everything. Including my schizophrenic personality.
Hahas.

Oh man I really miss everyone! :3 See you soon!


Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decide it's time to love again

Before too late
Before too long
Let's try to take it back before it all went wrong


Oh ya, I must remind myself to tell Mr Lim Boon Ping when my result comes out.
Hope he still remembers me and will be happy to hear about my result! (:

For now I'll just have to wait.
For everything to fall in place.
For my memory to get worse than it already is.
And maybe for me too finish my reflection. -.-

I hope my false sense of security will go away. Because it's NOT working at all.

All the best to the MT people! (: Waiting for your victorious return and amazing stories!! :D



Since you're not treating me lunch, we're better off strangers. Hmph.

Lol. I'm laughing out loud because it's not  funny at all.

I really shouldn't be Facebooking.

Or else it will be the end of me.

Crap. I really must make use of my chance fully.
Or else the whole world is going to hate me.

A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE

I'm super happy!! (:

Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God. Praise God.

Thanks for all those who has helped me and supported me in one way or another. (: Thanks Mr Yip for the guidance and great patiemce. :D

To the rest of the team, fret not. This is not a death sentence to your SChO life. Mr Yip says that there's still chance that you guys can get silver, so keep believing! (: For now, just keep the matter out of your mind and enjoy your holidays. (:

Jiayou for SAT Zhuoyun! (: You can surely do it! I believe in your potential! :D


I should go to sleep now. Later today, tomorrow and on the day itself still have to study and cram practical stuff into my brain. All the best to me! (:



Love you people: Madhu honey, Jocelyn love, Celine dear, Zhuoyun, Jing Wei, William, Marcus, Puay Weng darlin, Yi Long bestie, Avery, Shang Jun, Wang Han, Mum, Dad, Sister, Mr Yip.
<333

Goodnight! (:







Title: (Chemistry Olympiad) Practical round on Thursday 26th Nov







Body: Congratulations to the following students:






Hao Renjie


Zhu Yiting


Zhang Kejia


Wang Han






You need to look for me in college at 10.30am on Thursday to get your lab coats and safety googles before we set off for NUS.






You are allowed to wear casual attire, just take note:


Long pants (even for girls)


Covered shoes (for safety reasons)

I'm trying to let go. I'm trying to let go, I'm trying to let go, I'm...

I feel like I'm going through a break up.

Yes, it's that bad.

Urgh.

Creation VS Evolution

IDK what to say about this.

Seems ok but it's quite messy in my head.

Don't know what I don't know but don't know what I know either.

And the result is still not out yet.
It's like torturing me.
Don't know if I really should call up Mr Yip.
His links don't work and the videos are in bad quality/resolution can't really see clearly.



Oh man. IDK.

Haiz

剪不断，理还乱。

HAIZ.

(:

I guess it's not going to come today.

But it's okay. I feel much better now. (:









I still love you. So I will beat him.

<3

Blogthing as promised. TADA!

Disliking History Says You Are Unpredictable

You are unpredictable, unusual, and challenging. For you, history is too irrelevant and set in stone. You rather look toward the future. You don't like to commit to anything. You're a dynamic person who is always growing and changing. You are very interested in new ideas and technology. You like to keep up with the latest trends.

What Does Your Least Favorite School Subject Say About You?

Blogthings: Quizzes and Tests and Memes, Oh My!

You Are Chocolat Orange Pocky

Your attitude: funky and flavorful You are rich and deep - yet zingy and zesty. People consider you to be the perfect partner in crime. And you're wacky enough to keep people on their toes!

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

You Are Mostly Secure

In general, you feel confident and together. But the wrong thing can happen, and all of a sudden, you're not feeling so secure. Luckily, your insecurities don't last long... at least, not usually. So the next time you're feeling insecure, try to snap out of it - and remember the confident woman you are!

Are You An Insecure Girl?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

You Are Genial and Polite

You are thoughtful and contemplative. You enjoy spending time alone with your thoughts. You are generally confident and friendly with strangers. You are well mannered and sociable. Money is fairly important to you. You aren't super greedy, but you enjoy spending money on yourself. You tend to seek comfort, coziness, and stability in your life. For you, feeling at home is the best feeling ever.

The City Walk Personality Test

Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

You Are Cute!

Believe it or not, you are much more attractive than you realize. You don't try too hard, and that's one of the cutest things about you. You have a vibrant glow about you, and people are drawn to your energy. You're not perfect, thank goodness. Your flaws are part of what's lovable about you.

Are You Cute or Sexy?

Blogthings: Take a Quiz. Annoy Your Friends.

You Are Rudolph

Sweet and shy, you tend to be happiest when you're making someone else happy. Why You're Naughty: You sometimes stick that nose where it doesn't belong Why You're Nice: Christmas would be a sad affair without you!

Which of Santa's Reindeer Are You?

Blogthings: Free Quizzes for Everyone

Your Hands Say That You Are Logical

You are logical, analytical, and rational. You have good verbal skills. Flexible and broad minded, you can fit in to any situation. There's no telling where your life will take you. Consistent and reliable, you like to count on structure and routine in your life. Your emotions tend to be nervous and potent. Your energy - both positive and negative - deeply impacts your life.

What Do Your Hands Say About You?

The First Rule of Blogthings Is: You Don't Talk About Blogthings

You Are a Yellow Light

You take life at a sustainable past. Fast enough to do a lot, but not fast enough to leave everyone behind. You are open to whatever may come your way in life. You're very receptive. You are quite thoughtful and knowledgeable. You have the perfect mix of reflection and experience. You think before you act. You like to know some of the facts before you make a decision.

What Color Traffic Light Are You?

Blogthings: We Have a Quiz for Almost Everything

You Are a Werewolf

You're unpredictable, moody, and downright freaky. You seem sweet and harmless, until you snap. Then you're a total monster. Very few people can predict if you're going to be Dr. Jekyll or Mr. Hyde. But for you, all your transformations seem perfectly natural. Your greatest power: Your ability to tap into nature Your greatest weakness: Lack of self control You play well with: Vampires

What Kind of Monster Are You?

Blogthings: Discover the Parts of Your Personality that Have Been Hiding

You Are a Discount Shopper

You love to get things as cheaply as possible. You live for sales. It's partially because you like to save money, but it's also because you like the thrill of finding a fabulous deal. Of all the types, you tend to shop frequently but rarely by. You keep an eye on prices. Brand names are not that important to you. You know how to have style without collecting designer tags.

What Kind of Shopper Are You?

Blogthings: A Fine Line Between Insight and Stupidity

You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Blogthings: Waste Time at Work!

You Are "How Are You?"

When you ask someone what's going on in her life, you truly want to know. You are very genuine. You are a compassionate and empathetic person. You want the best for everyone. Your life is an open book, and you appreciate it when other people are open with you. Once someone is your friend, she'll be a friend for life. You value friendship that much.

What Greeting Are You?

Blogthings: Cheaper Than a Therapist

You Are a Doer

You are primarily concerned with what is actual. You tend to be a practical person. You love to stay busy, and you are always immersed in projects. You are in touch with your senses, and you enjoy indulging them. You're likely a crafter of some sort. You crave different sensations in life, whether it's working with your hands, playing sports, or eating your favorite meal.

Are You a Dreamer or a Doer?

Blogthings: Cheaper Than a Therapist

You Are a Log Ride

You prefer to live a fairly calm, relaxed life... with a few surprises thrown in. You don't tend to get yourself worked up easily. You can roll with what life throws at you. In relationships, you are steady and solid. You maintain a pretty broad perspective on what's going on. That's not to say you can't get swept away. You're emotions run as deep as anyone else's. Your life seems like it has been remarkably easy so far. But that's due to how you manage it. You never stretch yourself too thinly, and you think out your decisions carefully. Taking the time to enjoy each day is important to you, and you don't let your emotions rule you. You stay the course and do what's right... knowing it will all work out in the end. At your best, you are tolerant and understanding of other people's quirks. You take "go with the flow" to the extreme. Even if you don't like where you're going. At your worst, you repress your feelings and end up being a little tightly wound. You definitely have some explosive emotions that occasionally come to the surface!

What Carnival Ride Are You?

Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

You Are Green Lights

Your holidays are a time of rest and solace. You take time to reflect on the year that's passed. You also enjoy connecting with friends and family you've lost touch with. The holidays are your opportunity to remember what's important in your life.

What Color Christmas Lights Are You?

Blogthings: Our Quizzes Weren't Written By Bored 12 Year Olds

You Are Blue

You are a philosophical and often inspired person. You are the master of ideas. You are open to many points of view. You believe that it's important to communicate and not judge. You have a worldly perspective, and you're always looking to broaden it. You are a true people person, but you also value your solitude and personal space.

What Primary Color Are You?

Work is Hard. Time for Blogthings!

You Are Loafers

You are confident, powerful, and successful. Hard working and business like, you always dress and act appropriately. You are consistent and a bit conservative. You aren't really susceptible to trends, although you always dress well. While you tend to be formal, you know how to adapt to your surroundings. So are professional at work... but more laid back when your with your friends. You should live: In a huge city You should work: In a competitive field where you can rise to the top

What Kind of Shoe Are You?

Blogthings: We're Not Shrinks, But We Play Them On the Internet

Still waiting. And still scared.

I even went to check last year's posts and results. It also came out at about the same time.
Theory on Tuesday.
Silver-or-not (qualification into practical round) result out on Friday.
Practical round on the next Thursday.
Final results are out on Boxing Day, a late Christmas present.

Nervous. Anxiety.
I'm not supposed to be scared. I've alread told a few time, if I can get into the next round, thank God. If not, I think I've done pretty well enough for a bronze so I don't need to get upset. End of story.
My heart and my mind doesn't seem to be listening to this bullshit.
DAMN IT.

Need to do something to distract myself.

I think I just need to know the result, although I may not be in for the next round. But at least like that I can finally 死心. I can rest my mind and put all my negative emotions to an end.

Mr Yip, faster leh...
I think I'll go Blogthings and do quizzes to distract myself. Yup that's what I'll do.

See you soon. Hope the result that I post will be a positive one. It's either I'm in, or I'm not.

Let's think positive. Ya let's.






My heart needs to be soothed.

I AM SCARED. BOOHOO. :'(

I want to forget but I can't.
I don't want to feel scared but I can't.
I don't want to feel suffocated but I can't.
I want to do something to distract myself but nothing is working.
I want to save myself but I can't.
I want to stop listening to emo songs but I can't.
I want to stop lazing aroung and do some work but I can't.
I want to cheer myself up with happy songs but it's not working.
I want to know the result but it's not coming out.
I want to cry but tears won't flow out.
I want to tell myself that this feeling is not real but my heart won't listen.
I don't want to fall in love with this but my mind can't take control.

The Girl Who Can't Break Up, The Boy Who Can't Leave.


And no, the end of the world is nowhere near.
At least it won't happen like what how the movie portrayed.
All of us are given a promise, that the world won't experience a flood that will wipe out mankind again.
And I believe in this promise.
I have faith.
I mean, the scientists are not building any ark right now, right?
I find everything so much like bullshit. Because nothing is happening like what I believe.


There ain't no part time love.


If it's possible, my heart will break right this moment.
Or it would have been broken a long time ago.
From all this pressure, all the sorrow and all the pain.
Which washed all the happiness away.

But I can choose to be optimistic.
I can choose to stay happy and blissful.
I can choose to smile...


Oh man I'm typing bullshit.
Thanks ah Mr Hussain.


I need a hug, a shoulder to lean on, a flower to talk to, a rock to crash this computer.

I need a heart to love.




I don't know why I'm like that these days. I'm simply too scared.

Need to ask Celine for her prayer request.


Someone recommend a happy song. Fill my heart with peace.

Just ask the damn thing to come out. It's torturing me like crazy. I'm going mad.

And no, I don't want to watch 2012 for 4 times. But it's probably not up to me to decide.

I need to watch somthing heartwarming, touching, something with a happy ending.












I need you.

Goodbye, my friends!

Go away! D:<

Tollen,
Fehling,
Henderson,
Beer Lambert,
Faraday,
Planck,
Williamson,
Clemmenson,
Friedel-Crafts,
Wolf-Kishner,
Newman,
enantiomers,
Crystal-Field theory,
Boyle,
Charles,
alpha, beta, gamma, delta,
Arrhenius,
Benedict,
2,4-DNPH,
MYHZ,
and all their friends!

Shoo, shoo! Get out of my head!!

(Sadly,) SEE YOU NEXT YEAR! :/







*Sobs*

2012

Humanity. The good and the ugly. The bad and the worse. The unfairness of life. Understanding and being unheard. Friendship. Love. Fate. Hope and the hopeless. Money makes the world go round.

A lot of ugly truths are reflected. Dramatic scenes. How lucky the main character is.

I hate the part where the lady called Tomorrow had to die (I think that's her name in the movie). AND the part where her underground boyfriend (the really cute pilot) sacrificed himself. I didn't think much yesterday, but now that I think about it, maybe he died willingly for her. He took that risk for her.
At least the rich fat man died. Even though he saved his sons. Sorry. :/

A lot of scenes that made my  heart beat fast. Like the buildings collapsing and the ground breaking and stuff. My friend calls it a typical Hollywood movie. But the effects were great. (: The atmosphere was there. You can feel everyone holding their breaths! :0

Anyways, thanks for the great time I was able to have yesterday! :D Although you had to miss astronomy. ): But it was wonderful and I haven't went shopping or watched a movie in the cinema for very long. Thank you for the time we spent together. (:

Tomorrow we'll probably get to know who's in and who's not. Mr Yip has already put up the link of videos of chem prac on KM, waiting to be discovered. It's quite scary, now that I think about it. I was dying for tomorrow to come since after the paper on tuesday, but then again, now I don't want it to come so soon. My heart is in a mess. I just hope that at least I go to the second round and have a feel of what it is. :x At least I won't feel left out if the rest of the team is going together...

Didn't have any holiday plans at all last week, and suddenly it seems pretty full! :D The outside world, here I come!

I'm getting random here, jumping from one topic to another. But my mind is all mixed up right now. I can't think straight at this point of time. Don't know if it's from the lack of sleep or the lack of brain exercise. :/


I still hope somehow we can be strangers. That I didn't make that decision. That I wasn't so stupid as to trap myself for no reason. But then I would have missed the chance of meeting the rest, so I don't really know how I should feel right now. I'm one confused person.

Don't be governed by your emotions.

Oh well, everything has happened HAS happened. There's nothing I can do to undo everything, every choice and decision I make, at every cross road or junction I come across. Just appreciate the best that I have now, which is like such a generous gift to me already.

Thanks fot the memories then. Since I can't forget.

I don't want to be so easily controlled by my feelings, which I know are not real anyway, but I just can't find the way out. It must have been TV dramas. It must have been.

I don't know! I don't know anything!!


Sorry for the messy thoughts reflected above. I'm just one confused girl, so please forgive me.

I don't even know what I'm talking about myself. It must be nonsense.


Quote of yesterweek:

"All the questions I set, I find from Googles."

-THE END-













<3


Stop fooling yourself, Yiting. :'(

IT'S ALL OVER.

Thank God. For walking with me all this while. For being with me and supporting me. I'll trust God to do the rest. (:

Just thank God that it's over man. After all the anxiety and shivering in my bed and hearing about Marcus Chan's want-to-puke, all I want now is to hit the bed.

Going Bugis to shop with Zhuoyun tmr! (: Unexpected things have been happening lately. This, and Celina asking me to study together. I checked my message a few times to make sure that it's Celina with an "a" and not Celine with an "e". Never in my wildest dream would I think of that. It's really by God's amazing work and care for me to place these people and events in my life. You're probably already tired of hearing this, but still, I want to thank God for staying close in my life.

Another amazing thing is that Madhu can keep her 4 H2!! It's super amazing and awesome I tell you! Super happy for her and over the fact that we can have all our lessons and breaks together again! :D Except for GP which I will probably end up in GP class which I know nobody at all again. Oh well, I'm sure wherever I go, God will place awesome people by my side. (:


Here are some photos for today! I felt really great after the paper, although it was a bit too easy for me to get the piece of metal that I want. Never mind I'll trust God and leave everything to His hands and His plans. (: Sorry for the poor resolution. It's taken using my phone and Zi Xian's phone. Not everyone is here though. Kejia and Renjie and Wen Cong and the 2 vietamese scholars went of already.

Presenting to you the NJC SChO team! (:

Fun shot! :D

Zhuoyun and I

Mr Yip. He insisted on the matching thing (Madhu knows :D).

Yup. One year has gone past and it's finally over. No more training even if we get into the practical round next Thursday. But I'll always remember the good and bad times we spent together! (:
I'm just glad that I sent that message yesterday. (:

Hopefully I'm needed at NUS on 26 Nov! Best of luck people! (:


And Esther meimei don't worry about work. It always starts out tough, but I'm sure the situation will improve with time and with you trying harder! Go my love!


And thanks to my baobeis that I can last till today. A big hug to Jocelyn love, Celine dear and Madhu honey! (:
Love you guys sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much! <3












Keep smiling Yiting! (: And jiayou for track on Thursday. Then Shop for Clara's present on Friday. But I don't really know if 2012 will still be showing on 1 Dec leh. I'll try to make myself free. (:

TOMORROW

We've got about 86,400 seconds till our BIG day.

Go everybody. NJC jiayou!








<3

We're better off strangers.

Today's service was great! :D My biggest take away is to learn how to trust. Even trusting myself is an act and belief that I trust God. So ya trust yourself too Yiting! (:

Must learn to shut my mouth. Why can't I take defeats and failures? Just admit that you are wrong or just let it be! Stop arguing. HATE IT WHEN I DO THAT. Just kick the habit! >:(

Really glad that I've came to know God. Even though the difference may not be BIG, and even though I'm still sinning, I can feel a change in my path, my lifestyle, my decisions and maybe even some of my beliefs. And God is encouraging me to have more faith instead of scolding me for the little faith that I've had for the past few days (no excuse Yiting). Just talk about simple things: me catching the bus and arriving in school in time this morning, catching the bus back home as I chased it while it's sort of stuck in the long traffic jam, and waking up in time to alight at my stop and not sleep all the way to the Yishun Interchange. When I was chasing the bus after cell group, I thought that the bus might have drove off as it had driven to the bus stop for quite some time and I can't really see the bus and the bus stop, although I prayed to God that I can catch this bus home. But some part of me rebuted and told me that I cannot have such little faith and to trust in the Lord, so I believed that I will be able to catch the bus. Finally, with some running, I got to the bus stop and the bus was still there, stuck in the jam! And some how the bus driver saw me and he opened the front door before I could signal to him that I want to board the bus. When I boarded the bus, I thanked him and saw him already smiling at me, so I thought it was quite amazing as in it's as if he knows I want to board this bus since just now. And I reflected on my faith and I realised that I must be able to believe in God, from the small things that He has showed me to have faith in. If I can't even start with having faith in small things, how can I expect Him to perform BIG miracles for me? And of course thanks a lot for all the love, care and support from Passionates! <3 You guys are AWESOME! :3 Jiayou Melissa for your exams next week! I'm sure you can do it, be it having faith or doing well for your papers. God knows what He's doing. (: And I'm glad to have known Him. Although it's all part of His plan. :P

So, today was great. (: Things are going well, by the look of it. Yiting you must also jiayou okay? Gold medal for SChO! (Stop saying that it's not possible. I'm already promised with a miracle. (: )


Thank God for all the people that He planted in my life, be it to help me or to help them. Everyone appears for a reason, and I don't need a reason to be nice to anybody. You can do it! (:





But still, I think that my life would have been much better if I've never met you or known you personally. It's even worse than saying hi to my hi-bye friends and stuff. This sucks because I don't understand anything.

Never mind. I shall ask God.

But we're still better off strangers.
Oh well, see how it goes. Since We can't really ignore each other, like, look in each other's eyes for 3 seconds, and just turn away without even acknowledging each other, right?

Stop lying.


Peace. (:


<3

UNDEFINED IS MY IDENTITY

 
I still love you.

Thank you Zhuoyun for the food ytd! (:
LOVE IT! <3

Really really thanks alot for showing me kindness and generosity. Why is it so hard for me to show them to my own friends sometime?????

And thank God for helping with the allergy. I'm ashamed of the little faith I portray. Help me to build up my faith! Now that I know that bad things are occurring because good things are happpening and the devil doesn't want to see that happen. Therefore it is actually a good sign that these things are happening. (: I know my understanding of the whole issue is actually very shallow, but keep my faith there, okay? Don't stop believing! (:

I pray that the mission trip preparations go well, and that Celine can sell ALL her cookies! Look forward to it! :D

Good luck to Zhuoyun for being the future star of Singapore! (Or maybe she wants to go back to develop her talents :D) For all the good things that she has done, I'm sure God will protect her all the way and lead her to success! (: Go girl! She's really multi-talented I tell you. She did SMO, filmed, going for SChO next tuesday, chose to do NTU H3 physics (semi-conductor), idk what else she can do! Her life is great! (: All the best to the Chemistry Olympians (as Mr Yip likes to call) for next Tuesday! (: Hopefully this time we break the record of NJC for SChO! >:D

Speaking of which, I should get going. Study study! Do it now and not regret later. My motto: I am, therefore I can. Madhu say's it's cool so yeah~ :D And I came up with it myself! Cool right? Hahas.

Everything that I can do, it will be through the power and mercy of Him. So jiayou! Put in MY best so that He's efforts are not wasted. HE'S FIGHTING FOR ME! (thanks Mel for telling me that (: and thank God for telling me that through Mel, sending her by my side when I needed it!)


Go Yiting. ILY. <3

FRIDAY THE THIRTEETH

I guess they don't call it for no reason.

Because on this day, a girl happened to be chasing her bus to school,

and she fell down. And in a very unglam way.

Her butt still hurts now.


-------------------------------------------------------

THE END

Joke of the Day

Jingwei: I'm not staying overnight (for the camp). Nobody is staying back!

Mi Yip: Why? You really think I'm a paedophile ah?!?


Okay Zhe Ching, I promise I'll go to the journal skin website you introduced to me. After 17 Nov.
See, everything revolves around 17 Nov.
Oh man.

The Line

Have to know where to draw the line, so that I won't cross over.

Then I'll be conscious of what to do and what not to do.

But where exactly to draw the line? And what is the line that I need to draw?


Seriously, idk.