I want to thank God not only for my good results actually, but also for encouraging me and giving me grace for my 1 plus year in JC and before the release of my results. (:
God has always been with me for the past almost 2 years, but because of school and everything I know that I've not always been consciously walking with Him, and a lot of time my faith is very circumstantial. At the end of JC 1, God helped me as I took part in the Singapore Chemistry Olympiad and I got a silver medal! I was in shock because I was one of the higher medalists in my school but usually during lessons, I was considered one of the weaker few and even my teacher said he's very worried for me. And even though I only accepted Christ and started going to church in July that year, with my limited knowledge of God I knew that God blessed me with the result because I did not put in too much extra efforts compared to my peers.
But in JC 2 my mum decided to ban me from going to church so that I can study for my exams, and a lot of times I could not attend lifegroup as well. Also, I sort of went back to my old ways, and a lot of time during major exams I would do last minute work, either because of stress or I was complacent even though I wasn't confident. And after each A level paper, I would feel one step closer to doom as I still did last minute work for some of my papers and I generally felt that I didn't do well and even screwed up for some papers. On the day of my chem paper 2, I even mistook it for an afternoon paper when it was a morning paper! But really thank God for a series of events that happened that day, including my decision to sleep earlier the previous night and only to revise on the morning of the paper itself (must be from God!) as well as lots of other coincidences that managed to get me in school in time to do and even be able to finish my paper. By God's grace I got an A for my H2 chem, even though I was late for 25 minutes for my paper 2, and not only that He blessed me to get 7 distinctions and straight As for all the subjects that I took in my A levels!!
However, the most amazing part is not just that, but rather what happened for the past few days and even weeks. As the release of results approaches, I felt more and more nervous but I also learned to depend on God more. I always prayed to God as I wasn't confident of my results at all, and I received a lot of encouragement from my lifegroup members as well. And just a few days before the results came out, I heard God telling me that I actually did a good job and have done well, and that I will be able to walk the path that He has planned for me with my results. At that point of time, and even before that, I had very little confidence of myself and my academic abilities, and even though I've been wanting to study medicine in NUS, I was often unsure if I can really get in. When people asked me what course I would like to do, I would often answer "medicine IF POSSIBLE..." or sometimes even "science I think.." And even after hearing from God I thought hmm maybe my results will not be fantastic but it can get me to where God needs me to be, and I was so uncertain sometimes I wondered if it was really from God or my own mind playing a trick on me to console myself. But anyway I made up my mind and decided that whatever result I got, I would definitely smile and be contented with it and thank God wholeheartedly. I wasn't be able to keep the first part of my promise, because the moment I saw my results I was so shocked that I screamed and cried on the spot!! I still feel like I'm in a dream, because I would definitely not have done it by my own effort and I won't even dream of getting such a result. (: I even predicted that I would get a C for both my GP and econs, but God is just so amazing and awesome!! (:
I also thank God because I couldn't sleep the night before collecting my results, so I lay on my bed and started asking God, though I've done it quite a few times before but this time much more seriously, that what His plan for me is. And after my mind drifted off and thought about a lot of other stuff, God gave me this vision that I was talking/teaching a few people, and I knew it was from God because it was out of nowhere and it reminded me of a vision He gave me during YI camp 2009: the 1st being me sitting happily chatting with my family (at that time I often quarreled with my parents) and the 2nd being me wearing a white either clinical or lab coat. So after that time I roughly had an idea that I would either be doing healthcare or research, and God also gave me another vision one fine morning last year that I was talking to others about healthy lifestyle. At that point of time I felt really puzzled because I thought to myself that I didn't even practise healthy living myself, by often sleeping very late at night and stuff like that. Then I suddenly realised that it was a vision from God! And after that I considered the possibility of being a dietician, because I was saying something like how to eat healthily in my vision. So after I summed up the 3 visions from God that night, I felt really blessed and finally began to believe that God wants to put me in healthcare and help people with my knowledge. (: I was really happy and expecting a mediocre result, I began thinking about the other possible healthcare careers I learnt about after going for a health career talk. I felt God's peace with me and soon fell asleep.
Upon receiving my A level results, I realised that God's "good" when He talked to me that morning is really "GOOD"!!! And after telling my mum about everything, even my visions I go from God because my mum doesn't wish for me to do medicine as she thinks that it'll be too stressful and tough for me, she agreed to let me go to church twice a month (previously once a month) which is a 100% IMPROVEMENT!!!!! (I even heard her telling her friends and relatives about God's vision for me, and even though she thinks that it's just superstition the very fact that she's spreading the news means that she believes at least a little bit and that's so amazing!!!) And I just thank God so much for His grace to calm down whenever I felt nervous or depressed about how my results would turn out, and I'm also thankful that I can realise my promise to really thank God and honour Him with my results because it's really good!!! :DD So all the praise and glory to God, and I continue to pray for His grace and blessing for my medicine and other healthcare courses' application because for medicine, A level results are only 50% of their consideration and alot of other people ( I think around 1000 :x) obtained scores just as well as mine and some even better. I'll also do lots of research on my part and continue to pray that my mum's heart will soften and that she'll stop thinking that it's superstition or maybe even hallucination. (: Really thank God for everything, from putting me in NJ to in this church and lifegroup, where I received so much love, support, encouragement and prayers from my lg ((: All glory to God!!! <33333
And thank you lots mel for everything really!! (: From support to prayer to how to walk in Christ. I want to serve God in a healthcare profession next time!!
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