I was initially so sad. Thought I'd miss the chance. My dad told me never mind, there will always be chance, but I wasn't convinced. After reading the email more closely, I thought it wouldn't be very useful to me anyways, since I'm not the thinking and speaking up type of person, but I still felt that the chance would be wasted if I can't go.

Just so stubborn. Myself.

In the end I decided to complain about it. Lol. Though I thought I really shouldn't. Should have drawn the line sooner.

After that I was glad that there may actually be a chance that I can go this tea party, although not very likely that RIJC and HCI will have it on the exact same day, nor asking the professor to change the day for the training. But at least he tried. And I'm happy.

I tried.


Didn't go for the extra training at Bishan stadium yesterday morning. Although it's beneficial for me. Wasn't feeling very well and so didn't feel like going. Hasn't been feeling well since 2 Wednesdays ago. Really tired and worn out and stressed. I feel that I'm wasting everyone's time anyway, but He told me not to give up. I'm only wasting everyone's time if I keep being so lazy and negative. Must try to make better use of my time without compromising on my beauty sleep. I was almost late on Friday, really thank God I wasn't. I don't know how the school bell got even slower than my watch, but it mustn't have happened by chance. Therefore I must grab every likely opportunity that God has placed in front of me and make full use of it. And be more dependent on Him and not anyone else, especially not myself. I am weak but He is strong! Can't be so proud and complacent anymore. He loves me so much.

Everything that He has done for me, to take me so far. I'll embrace it with much love too.

"Hope you love it! (:"
Yes I want to. And I can if I just even try.

Mustn't listen to sad music. It really affects my mood a lot.

Last thing to mention... sorry Erin that I didn't go for Starstruck! ): Was really tired by that time though I tried staying back... Hope everything went well. (:


What else can you say. You hypocrite.



The silence isn't so bad
Till I look at my hands and feel sad
Cos the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly



Yay cheese tofu! Love it! (:
But I've grown soooooo fat over the Chinese New Year period. ):
Stop eating, you fat pig! Nationals' in about 1 month's time!! :0



Cos I see your blue eyes every time I close mine
You make it hard to breathe.