I shouldn't be complacent with what I have. I must treasure them and really really not take them for granted. Whether it's family, friends, opportunities, mentors, I must treat them like it's really important. Because they really are.
I was discouraged by how my dad objects to me going earlier to church for discipleship with Melissa tomorrow. But then I thought there will be other ways, and I don't just have to choose one of them, and I felt slightly better. Also, I sort of reminded myself by remembering how my dad remembered that I need to leave home at about 12.30 to get to church, so he made lunch ready for me at around 12. I'm really touched by how my parents care for me, worrying that I may not be able to manage and all, and I appreciate my parents even more through remembering this. Thank God for the reminder, and I'm sure there will be a way out and I don't have to worry. Because when I have faith and do as God tells me, I will surely defeat the devil. (:
I need to have more faith in myself, because God has faith in me. Even those around me have faith in me: Madhu, Celine, Jocelyn, Shang Jun.... although it's probably because they've never been there. I'm a full-fletched mugger now, and got myself into more trouble and mess than ever. But I know that this is a precious chance that God gave me, for me to go through this experience and if possible, lead me to His plan for me. I'm really grateful for this chance and all the support from my friends, how Celine reminded me that I don't have to care about what others think about me as a mugger or anything. Because my friends don't mind, so if other people do, they are not my friends and so I don't have to care! :D
I can't believe how much Mr Yip is trying to help me, whether it is out of his own ego or he really thinks and hopes that I can excel. He even found a mentor for me in my physical chem part, which is like so shocking that I got a heart attack when he mentioned it. Almost as hard as the one I got when I saw him in LT1 on Wednesday. I think it's really part of God's plan that I stayed back after H3 today to ask Mr Yip a few questions, because he actually arranged his ex-student to come back to NJC and discuss with him about how he can help me with physical chem, since he was a silver medalist 1 batch back and he did H3 physics and he don't have to go for NS, yet. It's amazing how I stayed back until so late, all the way till his ex-student came, which was like past 6.30 when H3 lesson ended around 5 today and I intended to go home and rest. I thank God also that I brought 2 packets of crackers to school today, even though I wasn't hungry initially, but I made full use of them as I gave like 1 packet to Mr Yip as he was hungry. :D It's really awesome how God works, and I'm convinced to walk according to his great, pleasant and perfect plan for me. (: I also thank God that my parents came to fetch me from school today, even though they could only reach my school at about 8.30, and they haven't even eaten dinner. I'm happy that my little sister came too, and she didn't complain about being hungry or me finishing so late. (: Thank God.
Recently I got really caught up in asking for leadership qualities that I forgot even how to be a good servant, to God and to the people around me. It's just like how I couldn't swing my arms naturally as I tried very hard to correct my arm swing. I also need to tame my tongue desperately. I haven't been speaking to a lot of people nicely, especially Mr Yip since I knew him better, and even my OG frined laughed at how I demanded Mr Ng to check his letter tray by today. But I still can't believe that he left our assignments in TC16. Oh God please let our work be still there.
Thank God for the amazing grace. (: I'm feeling dizzy now, and has been feeling tired since H3 or even earlier. I really must rest more and not only do chem!! Jiayou Yiting! So many people rooting for you, so you can do it! Even God said that He's got great plans for me, so let me trust Him fully and rely on Him and not on myself or Mr Yip or my friends and family! No stress because if He is for me, who can be against me? (:
LOVE YOU LOTS! <3
P.S. I hope nobody follows Marcus Chan's nonsense, calling me grandmistress!!
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